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I forgot how I did this before
I have forgotten how I coped with this situation in the past.
When I was alone
During a period of solitude or loneliness.
But now when I feel myself crumbling down
When I sense myself falling apart, crumbling emotionally.
I don't know why I choose to ignore
Uncertain about why I deliberately choose to disregard something.
Any signs of any life
Ignoring any indications or signals of life or vitality.
Hideaway from a hint of light
Seeking refuge, avoiding even a faint glimmer of light.
Keep myself locked in my room
Isolating myself, confined within my room.
I won't let you see me like this
Resisting others from witnessing my vulnerable state.
I'm such a mess tonight
Feeling disorganized and chaotic tonight.
I hate the fact that I see
Expressing displeasure about recognizing something.
You when I close my eyes
Seeing you in my thoughts when I shut my eyes.
Oh and when I'm thinking in the backseat
Reflecting while in the backseat, possibly metaphorical.
I count the birds that pass by to distract me
Distracting oneself by counting passing birds to avoid thoughts.
From you and from everything
Seeking distraction from you and everything that troubles me.
That's kept my world black and white
Referring to a world that has been perceived in a simplistic way.
But I know I'm still growing up
Acknowledging personal growth despite challenges.
I still have time everything is enough
Believing there is still time to achieve everything.
But I forgot how I did this before
Recalling past coping mechanisms during solitude.
When I was alone
When faced with emotional turmoil or breakdown.
Now when I feel myself crumbling
Expressing uncertainty about ignoring signs of distress.
Down I don't know
Confused about the choice to neglect any indications.
Why I choose to ignore any signs of anything
Repeating the idea of ignoring signs of anything.
Cause my head is wearing thin
Feeling mentally strained or exhausted.
Wish someone could understand
Wishing for understanding, but others have different plans.
But everyone has other plans for me
Acknowledging the external expectations and pressures.
And I see why they want me
Recognizing the reasons why others may want something from me.
Maybe I'll try hiding somewhere
Contemplating the possibility of hiding from challenges.
And I'll find all my answers hopefully
Hoping to find answers during the period of seclusion.
I make it out alive and I
Expressing a desire to overcome challenges and survive.
Will find a sign of anything
Committing to finding any sign of hope or positivity.
A sign of anything a sign of anything
Continuing the emphasis on seeking signs of hope or positivity.
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