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I get a feeling when you don't text back
I feel a certain way when you don't respond to my messages
Why do the butterflies appear like that
Wondering why I experience nervousness or excitement in response to your actions
I kinda like it when I don't know where we stand
I enjoy the uncertainty of our relationship status
Why do I always want the empty man
I consistently desire someone who may not be emotionally available
People tell me that they know I'll find the one
Others believe I will find a life partner
What if I see him and decide to run
Concerns about commitment may make me hesitate even if I meet the right person
Cuz I always thought that I wanted love
Although I thought I wanted love, I struggle to fully embrace it
But I could never fully stand it
Love is challenging for me to fully accept or comprehend
Chasing after all the ones
Pursuing individuals who prefer to maintain emotional distance
Who like to keep their distance
Attracted to those who keep a certain level of separation
All of this time, has it been me
Questioning if I have been the source of my loneliness all along
Am I trying to feel lonely
Wondering if I intentionally seek isolation
What I'm chasing
Reflecting on what I am pursuing in relationships
Never feels like love to me
Realizing that what I chase never truly feels like love
Looking closer at a complicated past
Examining a complex and challenging romantic history
The things I'm choosing they weren't built to last
Making choices in relationships that are not built for long-term success
Find somebody who I know will keep me down
Seeking someone who will consistently support and ground me
A vicious cycle, it goes 'round and 'round
Caught in a repeating pattern of destructive relationships
I hate the feeling but I play it on repeat
Disliking a certain emotion but repeating the experience
After all this time I'm questioning
Questioning my choices over time
Cuz I always thought that I wanted love
Despite wanting love, struggling to fully embrace it
But I could never fully stand it
Love is challenging for me to fully accept or comprehend
Chasing after all the ones
Pursuing individuals who prefer to maintain emotional distance
Who like to keep their distance
Attracted to those who keep a certain level of separation
All of this time, has it been me
Questioning if I have been the source of my loneliness all along
Am I trying to feel lonely
Wondering if I intentionally seek isolation
What I'm chasing
Reflecting on what I am pursuing in relationships
Never feels like love to me
Realizing that what I chase never truly feels like love
What if it's easy like a summer breeze
Considering the possibility that love could be easy and effortless
Kind of peaceful and it doesn't leave
Envisioning a peaceful and enduring love
What if I'm lucky and there's not a fight
Imagining a love that doesn't involve constant struggles
Just sort of happens and it turns out right
Contemplating a love that unfolds naturally and turns out well
I always thought that I wanted love
Despite wanting love, I was afraid to find it
But I was scared to ever find it
Suggesting that avoiding vulnerability means avoiding the right match
If you never really open up
If you don't open up, you won't have to find the perfect match
You don't have to find the right fit
Choosing to avoid the challenge of finding the right person
All of this time, it might be me
Realizing that loneliness may be a result of my own choices
But I'm tired of feeling lonely
Tired of the ongoing feeling of isolation
I'll take a chance on love
Willing to take a risk on love
That's trying to find me
Believing that love is actively seeking me
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