Lyrics
Once upon a time I made myself number one
At one point, I prioritized myself
Now I'm roasting under blazing sun, ridin' shotgun
Now, I'm feeling the heat and being influenced by someone else
You at the wheel
You're in control
My free will at your direction
My choices are guided by your wishes
Memorized your signs but forgot my own reflection
I've focused on your cues but lost sight of who I am
No more eggs in my basket, I gave them all to you
I've given everything to you
Still hungry after fables, but I ran out of spoons
Still wanting more but lacking resources
Giving more than I can give, overextending my wings
Exhausting myself by going beyond my limits
Good at playing your games but, this is not a win win
Skilled at your games, but it's not mutually beneficial
I been sinking in your dirty dishes even when my plates full
Even with a full plate, I'm drowning in your demands
I'll marry myself, I'll remain faithful
Committing to self-love and loyalty to myself
One day I'll leave the table 'cause you stopped serving love
I'll walk away when your love isn't reciprocated
Crave the taste of solitude, I know it is enough
Desire for solitude, recognizing it as fulfilling
I'm blue, the color of my solitude (ooh)
Feeling blue, representing solitude
I'm blue
Reiteration of feeling blue
I'ma choose to love me over you
Choosing self-love over the influence of someone else
I've lost count of how many times I knew my yes was a no
Repeatedly knowing what's right but not acting on it
I'm your clown out of habit, there is dust on my throne
Acting as a clown for someone, neglecting self-worth
For you I dropped my shit just to hear you say hero
Sacrificing for approval, seeking validation
Fly you to your dreams, distract me from my own
Supporting your dreams at the expense of mine
Maybe baby someday I will learn to be alone
Hoping to learn independence in the future
I'll fly myself up to the moon and build a gate around my zone
Creating boundaries to protect myself
I bust the myth that I am selfish when I take care of myself
Rejecting the misconception of selfishness when self-caring
Repeat it 'til I hear it, reverse the trauma in my cells
Reprogramming myself to heal past wounds
Blue (ooh), the color of my solitude
Emphasizing solitude again
I'm blue
Reiteration of feeling blue
I'ma choose to love me over you
Choosing self-love over external influences
I'ma choose to love me over you, over you
Reaffirming the choice of self-love
You are not a burden baby
Assuring someone of their value and purpose
You are on purpose baby
Reiterating the importance of someone's purpose
You are not a burden baby
Reassuring someone again about their value
You are on purpose
Reaffirming someone's purpose
Yeah, you are on purpose
Reiteration of someone's purpose
Ooh
(Repetitive vocalization)
Ooh
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