Lyrics
Lock myself in my room again
Retreating to seclusion in my room
When I'm alone I can play pretend
Using imagination to cope when alone
That you're with me, laying in my bed
Imagining your presence in my bed
I guess some things are better left unsaid
Some things are best left unspoken
You don't know how much I miss you
Expressing the depth of missing you
What more can I do?
Feeling helpless despite efforts
I just wanna kiss you again and again, and again
Longing to repeatedly kiss you
I miss my room, I miss my bed
Longing for the comfort of my room and bed
I guess I'm homesick
Realizing a sense of homesickness
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
Struggling to find mental refuge
These demons get into my brain
Internal struggles personified as demons
I'll make a deal with them
Attempting to negotiate with these struggles
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
Using substances to numb emotions
'Till I can't feel a thing
Desiring emotional numbness
I miss my room, I miss my bed
Continued longing for comfort
I guess I'm (homesi-)
Reiterating a sense of homesickness
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
Struggling to escape mental turmoil
These demons get into my brain
Continued portrayal of internal struggles
I'll make a deal with them
Continued attempt to deal with struggles
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
Using substances to cope
'Till I can't feel a thing
Seeking emotional numbing
But I feel guilty for staying inside on a nice day
Feeling guilty for not enjoying a nice day
Guilty for going outside on a weekday
Experiencing guilt for deviating from routine
Gave up, I'm staying in bed for the whole day
Choosing to stay in bed despite guilt
Put on a smile even when I'm not okay
Masking emotions with a smile
But I feel guilty for staying inside on a nice day
Reiterating the guilt of not seizing a good day
Guilty for going outside on a weekday
Repeating the guilt for weekday activities
Gave up, I'm staying in bed for the whole day
Continuing to stay in bed despite guilt
Put on a smile even when I'm not okay
Masking emotions despite inner turmoil
I miss my room, I miss my bed
Longing for the familiar comfort
I guess I'm homesick
Reaffirming a sense of homesickness
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
Struggling with internal conflicts
These demons get into my brain
Continued depiction of internal struggles
I'll make a deal with them
Continued effort to cope with inner turmoil
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
Using substances to escape emotions
'Til I can't feel a thing
Seeking emotional numbness through substances
I miss my room, I miss my bed
Repeated longing for familiar comfort
I guess I'm (homesi-)
Reiterating a sense of homesickness
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
Struggling to find mental refuge
These demons get into my brain
Continued portrayal of inner struggles
I'll make a deal with them
Continued attempt to deal with inner turmoil
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
Using substances to cope with emotions
'Til I can't feel a thing
Desiring complete emotional numbness
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