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Face down, again
Feeling defeated or overwhelmed, possibly emotionally or mentally.
Buried in my bedsheets
Seeking comfort or escape by burying oneself in bedsheets.
Headache seeping through my tv screen
Experiencing a headache, possibly caused by stress or emotional strain.
It seems a little weird that my daydreams are far less realistic than the ones that I have when I'm asleep
Daydreams are less realistic than dreams during sleep, highlighting a desire for an idealized reality.
Holding onto heartbreak like hands we used to hold
Clutching onto the pain of a past heartbreak, reminiscing about holding hands.
A familiar strike against the senses, like stories you left untold
Recalling unshared stories that strike the emotions.
That I knew you didn't know that I knew them
Awareness of knowledge asymmetry in a relationship.
And I still don't really feel like you have to
No expectation for the partner to reciprocate the awareness.
The only question left to ask is how did this happen
Expressing confusion about the current situation and a desire for understanding.
What do I need to say to make things change
Pleading for guidance on how to bring about change.
And the matter of the fact is I hate that I'm like this, but what can I do
Expressing self-hatred and a sense of helplessness in the current state.
I always hoped you wouldn't notice how much time I've wasted
Afraid of being noticed for time wasted, possibly on unproductive or regrettable activities.
On lonesome nights inside, I gaze my eyes
Loneliness and self-reflection during nights.
At the mirror looking just as hopeless as I do at this moment
Feeling hopeless, reflected both in the mirror and in the present moment.
I guess it's no surprise
Acceptance of the lack of surprise in the current situation.
I need to put more faith in myself
Recognizing the need for self-confidence.
Confess I wrote the letter i put on yourself
Admitting authorship of a letter, possibly a confession or expression of feelings.
Quit overcompensating for how numb I felt
Ending the attempt to compensate for emotional numbness.
Denounce decisions I mistakenly thought would help
Rejecting past decisions that were believed to be helpful but weren't.
Admit that there are things that I just can't control
Acknowledging lack of control over certain aspects of life.
Use all this dirt to fill up every gaping hole
Using past mistakes and experiences to fill emotional voids.
Escape to a place that I can call my home, where I'm never alone
Desiring a place of comfort and belonging.
Because you're never gone
Asserting a persistent connection with someone even if physically absent.
Because this isn't sustainable, just constantly walking in circles
Realizing the current situation is unsustainable, metaphorically walking in circles.
Until my legs give in, proceed to rub raw the skin on my shins from crawling on concrete again
Continuing a self-destructive cycle until physical exhaustion.
It never ends
Emphasizing the endless nature of the struggle.
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