Lyrics
Pardon me for swearing
Expressing apology for using strong language
What the hell have I become
Reflecting on a negative transformation in oneself
Is everything I dream of
Questioning the realization of dreams
Everything I really want
Expressing desires and aspirations
Telling myself daily
Reiterating a self-imposed warning to avoid love
Stay the hell away from love
Associating love with negative consequences
Every time it leaves me
Describing the emotional aftermath of love's departure
Feeling like I'm not enough
Feeling inadequate or insufficient
And I'm giving up on me
Expressing a sense of self-abandonment
I start to question everything that I believe
Questioning personal beliefs in the face of difficulties
Who cares if I am lonely
Indifference towards loneliness
I'm better on my own
Believing in personal strength when alone
Now you can never hurt me
Emphasizing resilience to emotional pain
That's all I've ever known
Being accustomed to emotional self-defense
I tell myself I'll be okay
Affirming self-reassurance for emotional well-being
If I can just survive today
Enduring the challenges of the present moment
But this pain inside my chest won't go away
Describing persistent emotional pain
Already December
Noting the time reference, possibly a metaphor for emotional coldness
Hope is turning into doubt
Transition from hope to uncertainty
Everyone around me
Observing others appearing to have life figured out
Seems to have it figured out
Feeling disconnected from personal values
Trying to remember
Attempting to recall past priorities
What I used to care about
Loss of individual identity in a crowd
Slowly I became just
Conforming to societal anonymity
Another face in the crowd
Experiencing a sense of unimportance
And I'm giving up on me
Continuation of self-abandonment
I start to question everything that I believe
Reevaluating personal beliefs amidst struggles
Who cares if I am lonely
Reiterating indifference towards loneliness
I'm better on my own
Emphasizing strength in solitude
Now you can never hurt me
Asserting immunity to emotional harm
That's all I've ever known
Expressing familiarity with emotional self-defense
I tell myself I'll be okay
Positive self-assurance for emotional well-being
If I can just survive today
Endurance through the challenges of the day
But this pain inside my chest won't go away
Continued struggle with persistent emotional pain
No this pain inside my chest won't go away
Reiteration of enduring emotional distress
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