Lyrics
I was seventeen I got kicked out of high school
I faced expulsion from high school when I was seventeen for not adhering to rules.
Didn't follow rules but my friends think that's cool
My friends find my disregard for rules appealing or admirable.
Twenty-three all the drugs couldn't save me
At the age of twenty-three, despite using drugs, I still feel helpless.
Please help me god its never ending
Plea for help from God, expressing a sense of endless struggle.
But I feel like I'm better off dead
Despite the difficulties, I feel that my life would be better if I were dead.
Its not in my head
The struggles I face are not merely imagined; they are real.
Im running from demons I'm already dead
I'm actively avoiding and confronting inner demons, feeling spiritually dead.
I'm already dead
Reiteration of the feeling of being spiritually dead.
I know you hate me
Acknowledgment of being disliked or hated by someone.
Baby its crazy
Describing the situation as crazy, possibly reflecting on a turbulent relationship.
Honest you played me
Expressing feelings of being played or deceived honestly.
Let go betrayed me
Feeling abandoned or let go by someone close.
Betrayed me betrayed me
Repetition emphasizing the theme of betrayal.
So broken betrayed me
Feeling emotionally shattered and betrayed.
Betrayed me and hate me
Continuation of feelings of betrayal and hatred.
So broken betrayed me
Reiteration of feeling broken and betrayed.
Running in the street from the cop on the corner
Describing a scene of running from the police while not being sober.
Couldn't really speak I'm not very sober
Difficulty speaking due to lack of sobriety.
Bright light in my face seeing colors
Encountering a bright light, possibly symbolizing a significant moment or realization.
Disorder god its never ending
Reflecting on disorder and a sense of chaos that seems never-ending.
Is it fake and it's all in my head
Questioning the authenticity of experiences, pondering if it's all in the mind.
Im thinking of death
Contemplating death as a thought.
And we're getting older I'm already dead
Feeling the weight of getting older and the accompanying sense of being spiritually dead.
I think I like you and you know its true
Expressing romantic feelings, with an acknowledgment that falling in love has a lasting impact even during difficult times.
If I fall for you can't get over you
-All the things you do I'm in love with you
-Even when I'm blue all because of you
-I think I like you and you know its true
-If I fall for you can't get over you
-All the things you do I'm in love with you
-Even when I'm blue all because of you
-I know you hate me
Repetition of feelings of being hated, played, betrayed, and broken, suggesting a continuing theme of emotional turmoil.
Baby its crazy
-Honest you played me
-Let go betrayed me
-Betrayed me betrayed me
-So broken betrayed me
-Betrayed me and hate me
-So broken betrayed me
-All the things you do I'm in love with you
Reiteration of being in love despite experiencing emotional distress.
Even when I'm blue all because of you
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