Lyrics
I got sick of overdosing
The speaker became tired or weary from excessive or habitual use of drugs or similar substances.
Papa met the Holy Ghost
A reference to a religious experience or encounter with something spiritual and powerful.
I keep all this shit inside me
Feelings or experiences that are kept internally, not expressed or shared outwardly.
Don’t know how to let you know
Struggling to find a way to communicate or reveal these internal feelings to someone else.
No
An outright denial or refusal.
But I need some time to think
Desire for some personal space or time to contemplate.
Need to sort it in my head first
The need to mentally organize or make sense of thoughts and emotions before taking action.
I might get another drink
Considering having another alcoholic drink.
Bet you’ll probably go to bed first
Expectation that the person being addressed will likely go to bed earlier.
Leave me with my ties.
Keeping certain connections or relationships.
Ima cut the ones that need cut
Intending to sever ties or relationships that are detrimental.
This weight is breaking kneecaps
Feeling overwhelmed or burdened, experiencing emotional pain.
This anger I can’t keep up
Struggling to contain or manage intense feelings of anger.
Need vaca in Ibiza
Desire for a vacation in Ibiza, seeking relaxation and escape.
Me lay back kick my feet up
Wanting to relax and enjoy leisure time.
Rest my eyes and have nightmares
Even during relaxation, experiencing distressing thoughts or nightmares.
I’d still probably see demons
Continuing to face inner struggles or demons despite attempts to escape or rest.
So I don’t go to sleep with the company I keep
Avoiding sleep to prevent confronting or being with the thoughts and emotions associated with the company (thoughts, emotions, demons) within oneself.
Don’t know how to talk about it. Don’t know how to speak
Difficulty in expressing or discussing personal issues or feelings.
Only thing that seems to keep me going is the green
Dependence on money (green) as a motivator or coping mechanism.
So I chase it and I smile. Putting everyone at ease
Using pursuit of money to maintain a facade of contentment for others.
I got sick of overdosing
Repetition of the first line, emphasizing the exhaustion from substance abuse or similar habits.
Papa met the Holy Ghost
Repetition of the religious or spiritual encounter.
I keep all this shit inside me.
Reiteration of keeping internal struggles or experiences private.
Don’t know how to let you no
Similar to line 4, struggling to communicate or reveal internal feelings.
No
Reiteration of a refusal or denial.
But I need some time to think
Repetition of the desire for personal contemplation or time alone.
Calling ma just making sure she’s okay
Checking in with the speaker's mother to ensure her well-being.
Back and forth across the country my depression parade.
Describing a repetitive cycle of experiencing and managing depression while traveling.
What a time to be alive had a hell of a day
Reflecting on the challenges of the present time despite the speaker's experiences.
Spent the first part of the year in my own self induced haze.
Spending a significant part of the year in a self-induced state of confusion or haziness.
But I was built different. Look how I came off the rebound.
Feeling resilient or different from others, bouncing back from difficult situations.
Finding comfort In The quiet. While there’s no one around.
Finding solace and peace in solitude, appreciating the absence of others.
Thought too many times bout quitting but that’s letting em down
Contemplating quitting or giving up but feeling a sense of responsibility not to disappoint others.
Even with every hit I take I’m still here standing my ground
Demonstrating resilience and determination to withstand challenges despite hardships.
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