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I've seen good things to turn so bad
I've witnessed positive situations deteriorate.
I joke about it and nobody laughs
I make light of it, but my humor goes unnoticed.
I've closed every single door
I've shut out all possibilities and opportunities.
Locked them all and swallowed the keys
I've closed myself off completely and am unwilling to unlock new experiences.
I'm gonna push everyone away
I'm deliberately pushing people away from me.
Watch me save them some time (save them some time)
Observing me distancing myself, saving others the effort of doing it.
It's easy for me these days
It's effortless for me now to go through familiar, possibly negative, experiences.
To go through the same things I've seen before
Repeating past mistakes without learning.
If nothing awaits
If there is no meaningful future,
Then I'm losing time
Then I'm wasting my time.
Maybe I'm alive
Questioning my existence, wondering if I am truly alive.
If I had the time
If I had the opportunity,
Fasting every day
Engaging in self-deprivation every day.
I think I'm supposed to be so much taller
Feeling inadequate or unfulfilled, possibly in physical stature.
But I didn't eat, how am I supposed to grow
Not nourishing myself, hindering personal growth.
If I can't do that
Expressing frustration at the inability to achieve certain goals.
Maybe I never thought I'd get here
Doubting my ability to reach this point, neglecting the thought.
So I never gave it much thought
Acknowledging the lack of consideration for reaching a certain state.
But there's no use in giving up
Realizing the futility of giving up despite challenges.
Existential crisis repeat
Facing repeated existential crises.
This page of life where all of us
Describing life as a collective decision-making process.
Choose between do we split up, leave here
Weighing the choice between separation and persistence.
Recipe for disasters
Referring to a recipe for inevitable failures or problems.
Monochrome view on all your dreams
Having a limited, one-dimensional perspective on aspirations.
Seen good things to turn bad
Reiterating the observation of positive things turning negative.
I joke about it and nobody laughs
Humorously acknowledging my tendency to joke about negative situations.
If nothing awaits
If the future holds nothing significant,
Then I'm losing time
Then my current actions are a waste of time.
Maybe I'm alive
Questioning my existence once again.
If I had the time
Reflecting on whether I am truly alive or just going through the motions.
If nothing awaits
If there is no meaningful future,
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