Lyrics
There are so many
Feeling vulnerable and flawed
Cracks on my skin
Visible imperfections on my skin
That the slightest touch
Even a gentle touch causes disintegration
Makes it burst to dust
My existence is fragile, easily crumbling
People walk through me
Others pass through me without noticing
And I'm wondering
Contemplating my physical presence
If I still own a physical body
Doubting if I still possess a tangible body
I'm sitting in the backseat
Observing from a passive position
And I don't know who is driving
Uncertainty about the direction of my life
It's eating me, eating me inside out
Internal struggles consuming me
I'm blending into the background
Fading into the background, losing significance
My core is melting down
My essence is disintegrating emotionally
Can anyone, anyone hear me now?
Seeking acknowledgment and connection
I'm breaking down into my particles
Breaking apart into minuscule components
Atom by atom
Gradual self-destruction, atom by atom
I've seen it coming, it's no miracle
Anticipating the breakdown, no surprise
I'm breaking down
Experiencing a profound breakdown
I'm breaking down into my particles
Fragmenting into elemental particles
I've seen it coming it's no miracle, no miracle
Expected collapse, devoid of miracles
How am I not afraid? Nobody knows
Concealing fear, inner turmoil undisclosed
I'm breaking down, I'm breaking down
Unveiling the inner disintegration
Atom by atom
Continued breakdown, atom by atom
People walk through me
Repetition of others passing through unnoticed
And I'm wondering
Reiteration of doubting physical presence
If I still own a physical body
Reaffirmation of existential uncertainty
How do they not see?
Perplexity at others' lack of perception
The world is not spinning
Obliviousness to the world's motion
I'd love for it to be
Desire for reality to be a pleasant dream
Just a dream
Yearning for an escape from harsh reality
I'm sitting in the backseat
Passively observing life's journey
While somebody else is driving
Surrendering control to an unknown force
To the wall, to the wall and I do nothing
Witnessing chaos and doing nothing
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