Table 14
Solitude at Table 14: A Dance of Self-Reflection
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I don't dance at weddings
I refrain from dancing at weddings.
Table 14 is my safe haven
Table 14 symbolizes a safe place for the speaker.
People don't see it
Others don't recognize Table 14 as a safe haven.
They wouldn't believe it
People wouldn't believe in the significance of Table 14.
It's myself that refrains me from joining in
The speaker's own inhibitions prevent participation.
Mom and dad tried to raise a social butterfly
Parents aimed to raise an outgoing individual.
Instinctively, though she feels best when she's paralyzed
The speaker finds comfort in stillness despite societal expectations.
People must wonder, she didn't say hi
Others may question why the speaker didn't greet them.
It's hard to give answers when you don't know why
Difficulty answering when the reason is unknown.
But besides, weddings always made me cry
Weddings evoke emotional responses, possibly tears.
I'll just sit alone at table 14
Choosing to sit alone at Table 14.
Pretend to just let it all go and try to breathe
Pretending to let go and breathe in the moment.
In the fragrance of fall
Immersing in the fall ambiance.
White rustic walls
Describing the surroundings - white rustic walls.
Visions and blush in the heat of it all
Noticing visions and blush amid the wedding atmosphere.
Makes me self-conscious and anxious and dangerously aware
Feeling self-conscious, anxious, and hyper-aware.
But nobody cares
No one pays attention to the speaker's internal struggle.
So I'll stare from table 14
Continues to observe from Table 14.
And I can't help but wonder
Reflecting on translating a culture that communicates in code.
How to translate a culture that speaks in code
The challenge of understanding societal norms.
Reading their faces
Interpreting people's expressions, though it's literal.
Its literal I know
Comparing social interactions to a masquerade party.
A masquerade party
People putting on a facade.
They put on a show
Observing but struggling to comprehend quickly.
But when it comes to reading I've always been slow
Acknowledging a slow pace in understanding.
I'll just sit alone at table 14
Choosing isolation at Table 14.
Watch how people pick up their coats and decipher their identities
Watching others and trying to decipher their identities.
In the fragrance of fall
Immersing again in the fall atmosphere.
White rustic walls
Describing the setting - white rustic walls.
Visions and blush in the heat of it all
Noticing visions and blush amid the wedding atmosphere.
Makes me self-conscious and anxious and dangerously aware
Experiencing self-consciousness, anxiety, and heightened awareness.
But nobody cares
No external concern for the speaker's internal struggle.
So I'll stare from table 14
Continues to observe from Table 14.
I was the girl in school who never raised her hand
Describing past experiences of being silent in school.
Mom and Dad said ask questions but they'll never understand
Parents' advice to ask questions but recognizing their lack of understanding.
That people are harmful by nature they can
Acknowledging the potential harm in people's words.
Say anything that's lethal
Words can be lethal in unfamiliar territory.
When you're in no man's land
Feeling isolated in a challenging environment.
But pain like this is only learned first hand
Painful experiences are only truly understood when personally experienced.
I'll just sit alone at table 14
Choosing isolation at Table 14 again.
Pretend to just let it all go and try to breathe
Pretending to let go and breathe in the moment once more.
In the fragrance of fall
Immersing in the fall ambiance again.
White rustic walls
Describing the surroundings - white rustic walls.
Visions and blush in the heat of it all
Noticing visions and blush amid the wedding atmosphere.
Intoxicating, stimulating
Describing the experience as intoxicating and stimulating.
Don't forget to breathe in your air
Reminder to breathe in the air and avoid despair.
There no room for despair
Emphasizing the importance of maintaining a positive outlook.
So I'll stare from table 14
Continues to observe
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