Lyrics
I wish I could see things a different way
I desire to perceive things from a different perspective.
Find another canvas to paint
Seeking a new platform to express myself creatively.
'Cause mine is torn, it's dirty 'n' grey
Describing the current state of the speaker's mind as damaged, worn, and gloomy.
I'm talking bout my own damn brain
Referring to the challenges and struggles within the speaker's own thoughts.
I know we're supposed to grow old
A reflection on the conventional expectation of growing old and sharing life with a partner.
Have a couple kids and share your life with someone but
Expressing doubt about finding a suitable life partner.
I don't think there's someone out there for me
Feeling a lack of connection with potential life partners.
I'm as lonely as I'll ever be
Emphasizing a profound sense of loneliness.
If I left without saying goodbye
Contemplating leaving without formal goodbyes.
Would you look for me or would you cry?
Wondering about the emotional response of others—whether they would search for the speaker or grieve.
If I left without saying goodbye
Reiteration of the emotional impact of an abrupt departure.
Would you look for me or would you cry?
Repetition of the question, emphasizing its significance.
This a every day thing for me
Describing a recurring emotional struggle in the speaker's life.
It's a struggle wakin' up without you next to me
The difficulty of starting each day without the companionship of a significant other.
Stressin' 'bout the future, what it fuckin' holds
Expressing anxiety about an uncertain future and its challenges.
Hopefully somethin' better
Hoping for a more positive and promising future.
This a every day thing for me
Reiteration of the daily struggle and its emotional toll.
It's a struggle wakin' up without you next to me, ay
Continuing the theme of waking up alone and the associated struggles.
Stressin' 'bout the future, what it fuckin' holds
Re-emphasizing concerns about the future and a hopeful outlook.
Hopefully something better, yeah
Expressing optimism for a better future.
I don't got the energy to feed myself
Conveying a lack of motivation to take care of oneself.
Barely got the energy to be myself
Describing a state of low energy and struggling to maintain one's identity.
Hopin' this ends sometime soon
Expressing a desire for the current difficult situation to end soon.
Hopin' this ends sometime soon
Reiteration of the hope for an end to the ongoing struggles.
If I left without saying goodbye
Repeating the contemplation of leaving without proper goodbyes.
Would you look for me or would you cry?
Reiterating the question about others' reactions to an unexpected departure.
If I left without saying goodbye
Repetition of the emotional impact of leaving without saying goodbye.
Would you look for me or would you cry?
Emphasizing the uncertainty of others' reactions to the speaker's departure.
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