Lyrics
Walking through hell just for heaven on earth
Expressing willingness to endure hardships for the reward of a better life.
I'm happy I ain't had to lose my nigga to the perks
Grateful for not losing a friend to the negative effects of drug use.
I'm happy I ain't had to purchase family on a shirt
Thankful for not having to experience the pain of losing family members tragically.
Still fighting with myself thinking this music gonna work
Internal struggle about the success of the music career.
But every song I drop, I see the numbers getting worse
Despite releasing songs, the popularity or success is decreasing.
Plus, the distance between my niggas got a nigga feeling cursed
Feeling isolated from friends, creating a sense of being cursed.
Other niggas digging holes want to see me in the dirt
Others are trying to bring the artist down, metaphorically burying him.
I'll be gone before you catch me owing money for this work
Prefer death over being in debt for illegal activities.
If they don't kill me for you, do they probably knew what I was worth
If not killed for others, they might know the artist's true value.
Whole hood know my name, but they can't feel a nigga hurt
Despite fame, others can't empathize with the artist's pain.
Say I changed because I don't come around because I put family first
Changed priorities for family, leading to misunderstandings.
That's some bullshit because honestly that shit had me hurting
Rejecting accusations of being distant and emphasizing the emotional toll.
I'm three days, some four months, I'm trying to make it work
Struggling for several months to find a balance in life.
I lost my pops in six months
Mourning the loss of the father within a short time frame.
Pictures worth a thousand words
Recognizing the emotional impact of pictures capturing memories.
Had to change my ways so Kartier know daddy put him first
Altering behavior for the sake of being a responsible father.
Be the man that I never had because I know what he worth
Striving to be a better man for his child, understanding their worth.
If I change, this was best for me
Acceptance that personal changes are for the artist's well-being.
I hope you understand
Expressing hope for understanding the reasons behind personal changes.
Still raised in the streets
Despite changes, still connected to the tough environment of the streets.
Hustle hard, not a leech
Working hard and avoiding dependency, not exploiting others.
Even started selling beats just to keep me out the streets
Turning to legal endeavors like selling beats to avoid a troubled life.
Hearing people talking on my name, I'm trying to keep it peace
Striving for peace despite hearing negative talk about the artist.
I've been working on my mental, probably why you ain't deceased
Avoiding a criminal case might have saved the artist from a darker path.
If I ain't never caught that case, then I don't know where I'd be
Expressing uncertainty about the chosen life path.
Mama, I don't wanna live this like this life chose me
Repetition of the desire not to live the challenging life that fate chose.
Mama, I don't wanna live this like this life chose me
Reiteration of the reluctance to accept the life that destiny has imposed.
Yeah
Reaffirmation of the commitment to endure hardships for a better life.
Walking through hell just for heaven on earth
Reflecting on the ongoing struggle for a better life.
I'm happy I ain't had to lose my nigga to the perks
Grateful for avoiding the negative impact of drug use on friends.
I'm happy I ain't had to purchase family on a shirt
Thankful for not having to mourn the loss of family members tragically.
Still fighting with myself thinking this music gon' work
Continuing the internal battle regarding the success of the music career.
But every song I drop, I see the numbers getting worse
Despite releasing songs, the artist observes declining popularity.
Plus the distance between my niggas, got a nigga feeling cursed
Feeling isolated from friends continues to be a burden.
Other niggas digging holes, wanna see me in the dirt
Others are actively trying to bring the artist down.
I'll be gone before you catch me owing money from this work
Anticipating potential consequences, including financial repercussions.
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