Lyrics
I used to feel like a mountain
I used to feel strong and immovable like a mountain.
Formed from slow subduction
Formed slowly from the accumulation of everything I've experienced.
Of everything i lived through
Resulting from the impact of all that I've lived through.
And now i'm just a bunch of dirt
Now I feel broken and insignificant, just a collection of worthless material.
You were the ocean blue
You, symbolized as the vast ocean, brought vitality and meaning to my life.
And you brought the life to me
You were the source of life for me.
Now i'm leagues away from the
Now I'm far removed from that life-giving force.
Dried up dead sea
Metaphorically distant from a once vibrant and now lifeless sea.
If only lifeguards could save me from drowning
Expressing a desire for help or rescue, wishing for someone to save from drowning metaphorically in one's dreams or subconscious.
In my dreams
The drowning is symbolic of being overwhelmed by nightmares or distressing thoughts.
Expunge the horrors from my lungs and
To remove or erase the terrifying experiences that haunt me.
Pull me to the beach
Metaphorically wanting to be brought back to safety and stability.
These days i swallow down sand and
Feeling overwhelmed and distressed, as if consuming hardships.
Wash grains down my throat and
Describing the feeling of consuming something unpleasant and coarse.
Once submerged i'll ensure that
Ensuring that despite being submerged in difficulties, one doesn't lose control or succumb to them.
This body doesn't float
Resisting being overpowered or negatively affected by hardships.
Today i smoked a cigarette
Engaging in an act that might provide temporary relief or distraction.
On the outside balcony
Specifically, smoking a cigarette in an attempt to alleviate discomfort.
I had a sore throat
An effect of the environment causing physical discomfort.
From seasonal allergies
Physical reactions caused by seasonal changes.
My friend said it wouldn't work and
Being aware of the ineffectiveness of the chosen action.
I knew she was right
Having the realization that others are correct about the action's futility.
But that cold menthol coating
Feeling relief or numbness from the physical discomfort through a menthol cigarette.
Numbed what hurt inside
The menthol's numbing effect on internal emotional pain.
If only lifeguards could save me from drowning
Reiterating the desire for rescue or salvation from distressing dreams or thoughts.
In my dreams
Similar to line 11, expressing a longing for relief from inner turmoil.
Expunge the horrors from my lungs and pull me to the beach
Wanting to be freed from distressing memories and brought back to a safer mental state.
These days i shovel down sand and
Metaphorically describing the consumption of hardships or difficulties.
Wash grains down my throat
Continuing to endure or experience hardships.
So once submerged i'll ensure that
Ensuring that despite being overwhelmed, one doesn't succumb to negative circumstances.
This body doesn't float
Maintaining control or resilience against adversities.
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