Survival Mode
Navigating Solitude: Maggie Andrew's Reflections on Self-Struggle
Lyrics
I’m mean to myself so that no one else can do it
I intentionally criticize myself to prevent others from doing it.
And I suck at making choices and i feel like no one listens
I struggle with decision-making, and it seems like no one pays attention to me.
Overthinking everything
I tend to overthink everything.
I get too scared to say anything
Fear prevents me from expressing myself.
My mind is always moving a thousand thoughts a second
My mind is constantly filled with numerous thoughts at a rapid pace.
I don't want you to feel bad for me
I don't want sympathy; I've been handling things independently.
I been doing this on my own
I've been navigating life on my own.
It’s not like I want you to leave
It's not that I want you to go away; I've just grown used to solitude.
I just got comfortable being alone
I've become comfortable with being alone.
But don’t leave me alone
Despite my comfort, I don't want to be left alone.
But don’t leave me alone
Reiteration of the desire not to be left alone.
I beat myself up feel like I’ll never be good enough
I criticize myself severely and feel inadequate.
Can’t get in touch with my emotions
I struggle to connect with my emotions.
Been living in survival mode
I've been living in a state of constant survival.
Can I just be honest
An expression of a desire for honesty.
It’s been weighing on my conscience
The burden on my conscience has been heavy.
I feel that I am hard to love
I feel that I am difficult to love.
I don't want you to feel bad for me
Reiteration of not seeking pity, having been handling challenges alone.
I been doing this on my own
I've been managing my life independently.
It’s not like I want you to leave
I don't want you to leave, but I've grown accustomed to solitude.
I just got comfortable being alone
I've found comfort in being alone.
But don’t leave me alone
Despite the comfort, a plea not to be left alone.
But don’t leave me alone
Reiteration of the plea not to be left alone.
Don’t leave
A direct plea not to be abandoned.
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