Sometimes I Wonder
Journey of Self-Discovery: Embracing Love, Loss, and Finding Home
Lyrics
Sometimes I wonder if we are born knowing how to love
Sometimes, the speaker questions if the capacity to love is inherent from birth.
Or do we only learn the lesson once all's said and done
Contemplating whether the lesson of love is only learned through life experiences.
Sometimes I wish that there was some kind of magic ball
Expressing a desire for a mystical solution to foresee a future without heartbreak.
That could show me some day I would stop from falling
Wishing for a revelation that could prevent the ongoing emotional descent.
'Cause I've been falling
Acknowledging a continuous fall, possibly emotionally or mentally.
And I never thought that I would want to hit the bottom
Unexpectedly desiring to reach rock bottom, a symbolic point of realization or change.
But it's the only sign I'm stopping
Suggesting that hitting the bottom is the only indicator of halting the descent.
Oh and I never thought I needed love until I got it
Realizing the need for love only after experiencing it.
I got it and I lost it
Having obtained love but subsequently losing it.
Oh I guess I'd always known that I'd never feel at home
Understanding that feeling at home requires venturing out on one's own.
'Til I was out there on my own
Feeling a sense of belonging only when independent and self-reliant.
Sometimes I wonder what it feels like not to fall apart
Contemplating the experience of not falling apart and maintaining composure.
'Cause some days it feels like I've been broken from the start
Expressing the perception of being broken from the beginning on certain days.
Sometimes I wish that there was some kind of magic pill
Wishing for a magical remedy to preserve emotional stability.
To keep me inside of my edges so that I don't spill
Desiring a solution to contain emotions within defined boundaries.
'Cause you know I've been spilling
Acknowledging a tendency to spill emotions beyond control.
And I never thought that I would want to hit the bottom
Surprisingly desiring to reach a low point as a signal to stop emotional overflow.
But it's the only sign I'm stopping
Reiterating that hitting the bottom is a necessary indication to pause and reflect.
Oh and I never thought I needed love until I got it
Realizing the need for love only after experiencing it.
I got it and I lost it
Having obtained love but subsequently losing it.
Oh I guess I'd always known that I'd never feel at home
Understanding that feeling at home requires venturing out on one's own.
'Til I was out there on my own
Feeling a sense of belonging only when independent and self-reliant.
Well the road's not getting any shorter
Reflecting on the elongated journey and the need for a change in direction.
Guess it's time I'm switching gears
Realizing the necessity to change gears as time progresses.
Yeah, I'm just out here getting older
Acknowledging the inevitable process of aging while being on a journey.
A couple months feel like a year
Perceiving that time feels elongated, with a few months seeming like a year.
I'm writing songs parked off on highway shoulders
Engaging in creative expression, writing songs while parked on the roadside.
There must be some place better than here
Expressing a desire for a better place than the current situation.
Well I guess I'd always known
Reaffirming the prior realization of being on an independent journey.
That I'd be out here on my own
Acknowledging the expectation of being self-reliant and alone.
And I never thought that I would want to hit the bottom
Surprisingly desiring to reach a low point as a signal to stop emotional overflow.
But it's the only sign I'm stopping
Reiterating that hitting the bottom is a necessary indication to pause and reflect.
Oh and I never thought I needed love until I got it
Realizing the need for love only after experiencing it.
I got it and I lost it
Having obtained love but subsequently losing it.
Oh and I never thought I wanted you until I found you
Realizing the desire for someone only after finding and connecting with them.
I found you and I softened
Finding someone and experiencing a softening of emotions.
I guess I'd always known that I'd never feel at home
Understanding that feeling at home requires venturing out on one's own.
'Til I was out here on my own
Feeling a sense of belonging only when independent and self-reliant.
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