Lyrics
Here we go, I've sailed away to terrain inside my brain
Embarking on a journey within my mind
Take me far and leave me there, and I might just go insane
Taking me to a distant place, risking insanity
Where's the land they promised if we play their little game?
Questioning the promised destination in the game of life
I can't seem to find the words that piece together straight
Struggling to articulate my thoughts coherently
Thoughts have a party, host's name is Marti
Thoughts are lively, hosted by someone named Marti
Marti wants to off himself, so he has to party
Marti desires self-destruction, using parties as an outlet
Benzodis, amphetamines, dimethyltryptamines
Reference to substances like benzodiazepines and hallucinogens
Whatever holds the pain away and puts the open wounds at ease
Using substances to numb pain and ease emotional wounds
Whatever keeps the wheels oiled, keep the goons at bay
Seeking whatever maintains smooth functioning and keeps threats away
I watch him wash away as the years pass him like days
Observing Marti's gradual decline over the passing years
Lost inside an endless loop of what is theirs and what ain't
Trapped in a cyclical struggle between what belongs to others and what doesn't
Used to look up to Sora now he looks up to cocaine
Shift from admiring Sora to looking up to cocaine
I just can't do it anymore
Expressing an inability to continue a certain behavior
I see right through it all the doors
Seeing through deceptive facades and illusions
I just can't do it anymore
Reiterating the inability to persist in a certain situation
I see right through it all the doors
Continued awareness of falsehoods and deceptions
Now Marti's got a needle, does he dabble in phlebotomy?
Mention of Marti possessing a needle, questioning involvement in phlebotomy
Already dropped out and chose a different route of chemistry
Marti choosing an alternative path involving different chemicals
He says this world ain't for the folks that live with their dreams
Believing that this world is not suitable for dreamers
Addy'd up in College Station so it's no more sleep
Engaging in substance use in College Station, sacrificing sleep
Wanna make your parents proud? Then do good things
Advice to make parents proud by doing positive deeds
Thoughts have a party, host's name is Marti
Reiteration of thoughts having a lively gathering hosted by Marti
Marti wants to off himself, so he has to party
Marti's inclination towards self-destruction, using parties as an escape
Benzodis, amphetamines, dimethyltryptamines
Reference to substances, echoing earlier lines
Whatever holds the pain away and puts the open wounds at ease
Using substances to alleviate pain and soothe open wounds
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