Lyrics
Waking up, I drag myself out of bed
Waking up, facing the day with reluctance
I can't escape this overwhelming sense of dread
Feeling an intense sense of dread that is hard to escape
When it finally feels like I can spend
When it seems possible to enjoy life
My life like I want
Struggling to live life on one's own terms
I've got a new thing, but im down the same hole again
Despite having a new experience, feeling stuck in familiar problems
Try my best at writing
Making an effort to express oneself through writing
Some meaning into whining
Trying to find meaning in complaining
Rhyme hypnotize with nacho fries
Playing with words, combining unrelated concepts
Like it means anything
Expressing skepticism about the significance of words
All the kids around my age
Observing peers planning their futures
Are planning out their dreams
Feeling behind, struggling to understand personal shortcomings
Im still trying to figure out
Still grappling with self-discovery
Why I'm so bad at everything
Questioning personal competence in various aspects of life
Riding in a bus at dawn
Commute to an undesirable place at an early hour
To go back to the place I hate
Disliking the place one is forced to return to
Everything is hanging onto
Feeling burdened by the consequences of past mistakes
Another one of my mistakes
Acknowledging the repercussions of personal errors
There's someone I knew in highschool sitting right across the aisle
Encountering someone from the past without being recognized
I knew she wouldn't recognize me
Anticipating a lack of recognition from a former acquaintance
She's got a gun inside her Bible
Revealing a surprising and possibly dangerous aspect of the acquaintance
My thoughts betray my conscience
Experiencing internal conflict and self-deception
Feel like I'm lying to myself
Feeling dishonest with oneself
What difference would it make
Questioning the impact of personal actions on oneself
Its what I do with everyone else
Considering one's behavior in comparison to interactions with others
No one's called me in 6 months
Experiencing a lack of communication and support for an extended period
No one cares if I need help
Feeling neglected despite personal struggles
But yet they come to me with problems
Being approached by others with their problems despite personal challenges
That they could have fixed themselves
Expressing frustration at others' dependency without self-reliance
Can't help over thinking
Struggling with excessive and intrusive thoughts
(Ive got a new thing but I'm down the same hole again)
Repeating the cycle of experiencing a new situation but falling into old problems
I feel like I'm sinking
Feeling a sense of descent or decline
(Ive got a new thing but I'm down the same hole again)
Expressing a repetitive pattern of encountering challenges despite new experiences
Can't help over thinking
Continuing to struggle with persistent and overwhelming thoughts
(Ive got a new thing but I'm down the same hole again)
Reiterating the frustration of facing familiar challenges despite a new experience
I feel like I'm shrinking
Feeling a diminishing sense of self or confidence
(Ive got a new thing but I'm down the same hole again)
Expressing the recurrence of familiar struggles despite a new element in life
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