Lyrics
Got a trash heart and a trash mind.
Expressing a sense of having a troubled or damaged emotional core and intellect.
Take shit so it feels alright I
Using negative experiences to create a distorted sense of comfort or normalcy.
Lay down until this moment ends
Choosing to remain inactive until a difficult moment passes.
Then I black out with my made up friends.
Escaping reality by engaging with imaginary companions during blackout periods.
You seem fine, but only now.
Acknowledging superficial appearances of well-being that may not be lasting.
You'll change once the sun goes down I
Suggesting a change in behavior or mood with the setting of the sun.
Don't realize how it goes
Not realizing the consequences of actions until they lead to a breakdown.
Till' everything implodes.
Realizing the impact of one's choices only when everything collapses.
Crawling down the street,
Describing a struggle or difficulty, using the metaphor of crawling down the street.
I'm draggin' by my feet.
Feeling exhausted and burdened, as if being dragged by one's feet.
I'm feeling like a mess.
Expressing a state of emotional chaos and disorder.
Mix up my thoughts with what I said.
Confusing one's thoughts with spoken words, possibly alluding to self-deception.
Even if I cry,
Even in moments of vulnerability, the pain is internalized and not easily expressed.
My pain will melt into my time.
Suggesting a difficulty in externalizing or sharing emotional pain.
Even when I'm dead,
Addressing mortality and the inevitability of death.
My friends with bury me instead.
Anticipating being remembered or dealt with by friends after death.
I called it,
Claiming foresight or predicting the outcome of a situation.
I gave into everything that you wanted,
Surrendering to others' desires and becoming a puppet in someone else's game.
To play me on your strings.
Being manipulated and controlled by external forces.
Debating leaving myself behind.
Contemplating abandoning one's identity or sense of self.
Is waiting just a waste of time.
Questioning the value of waiting and its potential futility.
Crawling down the street,
Repeating the struggle metaphor, emphasizing persistent difficulties.
I'm draggin' by my feet.
Reiteration of feeling burdened and physically worn out.
I'm feeling like a mess.
Reaffirming the sense of emotional chaos and confusion.
Mix up my thoughts with what I said.
Repeating the theme of mixing up thoughts and words, indicating inner turmoil.
Even if I cry,
Emphasizing the internalization of pain, even in moments of vulnerability.
My pain will melt into my time.
Reiterating the difficulty of expressing emotional pain outwardly.
Even when I'm dead,
Repeating the theme of mortality and the anticipation of death.
My friends with bury me instead.
Expecting friends to play a role in dealing with the aftermath of death.
Hold me tightly,
Expressing a need for emotional support and connection.
Can't stand to say goodbye.
Resisting the idea of parting or separation.
Won't change my mind,
Asserting a decision that won't be easily changed or reversed.
I've got to say goodbye.
Acknowledging the necessity of saying farewell despite the emotional difficulty.
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