My Frailty
Embracing Frailty: A Journey through Loss and Liberation
Lyrics
I remember your taste
I remember the flavor of your presence
You're the life I gave away
You represent a life I sacrificed or lost
Failure wrapped around my neck
Frustration and defeat are tightly entwined around me
You're the ghost that held me back
You, like a haunting specter, hindered my progress
Now I am letting go
Now, I am releasing my hold or attachment
Drowning myself in the frozen waters
Engulfing myself in icy, immobilizing waters
I feel the words escaping
I sense my spoken words slipping away
They break from my thoughts
They separate from my thoughts
And disappear from my mouth
And vanish before leaving my mouth
They leave behind a taste
They leave behind a lingering sensation
The taste of failure
The sensation is that of failure
So familiar it reminds me of you
It is a familiar feeling that brings memories of you
Don't say you'll save my life
Do not claim you will rescue me from my troubles
I never asked you for anything
I never requested assistance from you
But you wanted more
Yet, you desired more than I could give
Drowning in your frozen waters
Sinking in the cold, constricting environment you created
I was sinking, you were my frailty
I was descending, and you were my weakness or vulnerability
Drowning in your frozen waters
Sinking in the freezing conditions you imposed
Don't you say that you'll save my life
Do not falsely promise to rescue me
I'm vanishing
I am fading away
I'm giving upon myself
I am relinquishing my sense of self
Closing my eyes forever
Closing my eyes permanently
Throw my body into the spinning and twisting I bend into something else
Throwing my body into chaotic and transformative experiences
A catastrophe
Becoming a disaster
A murderer of my hopes and dreams
A murderer of my aspirations and dreams
This is not my life When winter ends
This current state is not the life I envisioned
My new life begins
My new existence commences when winter concludes
Bend and break
Bending and breaking
In pieces I was for you
In fragments, I existed for your sake
You were my frailty
You were my vulnerability or weakness
Don't say you'll save my fucking life
Do not assert that you will rescue my life
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