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Growing up I had a different struggle
Reflecting on a unique and challenging childhood
Different dreams different scenes and I was living subtle
Having distinct dreams and experiences, living quietly
So subtle no one knew why I didn't get involved with the things as a kid that were told as accepted
Avoiding activities deemed normal due to unidentified reasons
Cause I never got involved with the P.E
Not participating in physical education
Teachers kicking off at me like I'm lazy
Experiencing criticism from teachers, misunderstood as laziness
I ain't lazy just struggle when I sweat see
Struggling with sweating, not laziness
People always used to say it's the summer take your jumper off
Pressure to undress in summer, fearing loss of friends
But I couldn't take off my jumper I'd lose more friends that I barley got
Unable to reveal skin condition due to potential social consequences
Have you ever been the stand out in a crowd
Standing out in a crowd due to personal struggles
Like you stand out and they don't even know what's it's about
Being misunderstood without others knowing the reasons
I had to go to sleep covered up bandages
Dealing with bandages during sleep
The physical was easy but the mental is what damages
Emphasizing the mental toll of the condition
I thought I'd never wear a short sleeve
Believing short sleeves were an unattainable dream
Or even shorts of course cause that was my dream
Wishing to wear shorts but facing challenges
I would go to bed at night and think god why me
Questioning the reasons for personal suffering
Then wake up in the morning blood covered on my bedding
Waking up with blood on bedding due to skin issues
I had to changed my bedding so often cause I was shedding
Frequent bedding changes due to shedding skin
This ain't a good life that I was heading
Recognizing a negative life trajectory at an early age
Staying in my room was all I knew when eleven
Isolating oneself in the room as a coping mechanism
Shutter down pitch back an that's twenty four seven
Describing a bleak, isolated daily routine
I used to think my whole family didn't wanna be around me
Feeling unwanted by family, contributing to self-isolation
Cause if I was them I wouldn't even wanna be around me
Expressing a lack of self-worth and understanding
Normal kids would ask why I can't go out an I just say it's cause my parents are mean an they always used to ground me
Fabricating reasons for not going out to avoid judgment
But yeah the real reason I was bleeding an sticking to my clothes
Revealing the true reason for avoiding social situations
Itching when hot nails covered in blood was how it goes
Describing the discomfort and bleeding associated with the condition
I seen myself as a freak not even just in school that was 7 days of the week
Feeling like a social outcast due to constant skin issues
I thought I'd never have a physical job
Doubting the possibility of a physical job due to the condition
But now I own my business and work hard they see the lifestyle that I got
Achieving success in owning a business despite initial challenges
At sixteen I bought my first short sleeved top and then 17 my license I thought this high would never stop
Overcoming personal barriers, achieving milestones in life
I was meeting girl just for thrills yeah you should of seen me
Engaging in casual relationships as a form of liberation
Maybe that's why I act the way I am now
Linking past struggles to current behavior and attitude
Always up for whatever an so loud an so needy
Portraying an outgoing and assertive present personality
Look we all got struggles I know that I'm nothing special
Acknowledging shared human struggles without claiming uniqueness
But I'm just sharing this story so you know that life gets better
Sharing personal story as a message of hope and resilience
I was an outcast out looked but now I'm shining thought I'd never
Transforming from an outcast to a confident individual
So stay true to yourself cause being you is something clever
Encouraging authenticity and self-acceptance
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