Pushing You Away
Breaking Hearts: Megan Golden's Struggle with Self-Sabotage in 'Pushing You Away'
Lyrics
I start a fight
I intentionally start an argument
Just to see how easily you might
To test how easily you might
Give up on us
Give up on our relationship
If it gets a little tough
If it becomes challenging
I know that I always get caught up in my head
I tend to overthink and dwell in my thoughts
Creating problems that don't exist
Creating imaginary problems
Blaming you for things you never did
Wrongfully attributing blame to you
I don't mean to
I don't intend to do so
But I'm pushing you away
Nevertheless, I am pushing you away emotionally
If I lose you I can't take
Fearing the consequences of losing you
Knowing there's no one else to blame
Acknowledging that I am solely responsible
Cause I'm the one who caused my own heart to break
I caused my own heartbreak
I'm pushing you away
Continuing to distance myself emotionally
Cause I don't know how to love someone who
Struggling to love someone who
Stays
Chooses to stay committed
You don't run
Despite my flaws, you don't leave
When I tell you all about the things I've done
Sharing my mistakes with you
But it don't make sense cause everyone else does
Despite others understanding, your acceptance confuses me
So why don't you
Why don't you
Pushing you away
Experience me pushing you away emotionally
If I lose you I can't take
Fearing the consequences of losing you
Knowing there's no one else to blame
Recognizing I am the cause of my heartbreak
Cause I'm the one who caused my own heart to break
Continuing to distance myself emotionally
I'm pushing you away
Struggling to love someone who
Cause I don't know how to love someone who
Chooses to stay committed
Stays
Reiterating the difficulty of loving a committed partner
I'm good at loving from a distance
I excel at loving from a distance
Waking up missing
Waking up missing distant things
Things I know I shouldn't
Pursuing things I shouldn't
Good at chasing down things I know are gonna leave
Accustomed to chasing those who will leave
But now I found someone who wouldn't
Discovering someone who won't leave
And it scares me to think that it might be you
Fearing that person might be you
It scares me to think you think that too
Feeling uneasy about you possibly thinking the same
But I'm pushing you away
Continuing to distance myself emotionally
If I lose you I can't take
Fearing the consequences of losing you
Knowing there's no one else to blame
Recognizing I am the cause of my heartbreak
Cause I'm the one who caused my own heart to break
Continuing to distance myself emotionally
I'm pushing you away
Struggling to love someone who
Cause I don't know how to love someone who
Chooses to stay committed
Stays
Reiterating the difficulty of loving a committed partner
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