Lyrics
Hold it back until November
Anticipating or holding back emotions until November.
It orbits my body
Referring to something revolving around the speaker's body, possibly a metaphor for a recurring event or memory.
Until I see it and remember
Recalling a memory when the speaker sees or experiences something.
Where my heroes fell
Reflecting on a place where the speaker's heroes faced challenges or fell.
Tried my hand at pretending
Attempting to feign or act, possibly in the context of emotions or situations.
At that first birthday party
Describing an incident or experience at the speaker's first birthday party.
Mom wanted to feel normal
Highlighting the contrast between the speaker's mother's desire for normalcy and the speaker's own feelings of distress.
But I felt like hell
Expressing the speaker's negative emotions during the mentioned birthday party.
Now that place is long gone
Indicating the absence or disappearance of a place from the speaker's past.
With those pictures from prom
Noting the absence of prom pictures from the mentioned place.
We bury the truth
Referring to the act of hiding or suppressing the truth in a place where it doesn't belong.
Where the truth don't belong
Emphasizing the misplacement of the truth.
Oh my god what a sight
Expressing awe or surprise at a remarkable sight or revelation.
It gets all brought to light
Acknowledging that significant things are revealed, but the positive impact is short-lived.
But the daylight don't last all that long
Highlighting the temporary nature of positive revelations or insights.
Hold my breath when they pass by
Describing the speaker's reaction to a certain situation by holding their breath when someone passes by.
Hope no one can see me
Expressing a desire not to be noticed or seen by others.
Taking good men at their word
Reflecting on the negative consequences of trusting or believing in good men.
Has gotten me nowhere
Expressing frustration or disappointment in the lack of progress from taking others at their word.
Humming hymns from my past life
Recalling or singing hymns from the speaker's past life.
The ink starts to bleed
Metaphorically describing the bleeding of ink, possibly indicating emotional turmoil or leakage of personal experiences.
Angels sing like a gunshot
Using vivid imagery of angels singing like gunshots, possibly symbolizing a sudden and impactful revelation or realization.
Let earth be stripped bare
Expressing a desire for a profound change or transformation in the world.
I am angry, not sad
Clarifying that the speaker is angry rather than sad.
And I miss my damn dad
Expressing the speaker's longing for their deceased father.
Somebody owes me the old life that I had
Asserting a claim that someone owes the speaker the life they had before.
Oh my god, what a sight
Reiterating the awe or surprise at a significant sight.
I won't be home tonight
Declaring the speaker's absence from home tonight.
I don't know when I'll be coming back
Expressing uncertainty about when the speaker will return home.
I'm putting my drink down and walking outside
Announcing the speaker's decision to stop drinking and go outside.
There's a void in the sky of immeasurable size
Describing an overwhelming void in the sky, possibly representing a significant emptiness or absence.
I'm more bitter and angrier than I had realized
Acknowledging increased bitterness and anger in the speaker's emotions.
Let me find myself under its eye
Expressing a desire to discover oneself under a profound gaze or influence.
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