Lyrics
It's been a while since you've seen me smile so
Long time since I've shown genuine happiness
I'm trying to lose the weight that's holdin' me down oh
Trying to free myself from burdensome emotions
I gotta breakaway, I gotta reach out
Need to break free, need to seek help or support
I gotta breakaway, I gotta reach out
Repeated emphasis on the desire to break free and seek assistance
I spend my days hidin' pain from my face aye
Concealing emotional distress during the day
I wanna reach out, I don't know what my friends will say
Wanting to seek help but unsure of friends' reactions
For now I'm lost, I'll let these thoughts in my head replay
Currently feeling lost, letting negative thoughts replay
My mind's a mess, and you just seem so far away
Feeling mentally chaotic and disconnected from someone important
It's been a while since you've seen me smile so
Repeated lines emphasizing the struggle with emotions, seeking support, and feeling distant
I'm trying to lose the weight that's holdin' me down oh
-I gotta breakaway, I gotta reach out
-I gotta breakaway, I gotta reach out
-I spend my days hidin' pain from my face aye
-I wanna reach out, I don't know what my friends will say
-For now I'm lost, I'll let these thoughts in my head replay
-My mind's a mess, and you just seem so far away
-How did I get here
Questioning how the current situation came to be
Actually how am I still here
Expressing surprise at still being in this situation
This feeling's familiar, it's makin' me bitter
Familiarity with a recurring feeling that breeds bitterness
It's been like a pest in the past year
Feeling like a persistent nuisance over the past year
I just want change no cashier
Desire for change, metaphorically not wanting mere transactions but substantial transformation
Feelin' so low I'm sincere
Genuinely feeling low and honest about it
I might pull the trigger or start drinkin' liquor
Considering extreme measures or self-destructive behaviors
I need you to listen, I need you to hear
Urgent need for someone to pay attention and understand
I'm tryna be friends with the wild things
Attempting to connect with unconventional or untamed aspects within oneself
These thoughts in my head are surprising
Surprised by the intensity of thoughts
I often imagine me dying
Frequent thoughts about self-harm or death
It's hard to fight back but I'm trying
Struggling to resist negative thoughts and emotions
I'm feelin' so lonely it's pullin' me under
Feeling profoundly isolated and sinking deeper into loneliness
Stuck in my head, no one's callin' my number
No one reaching out to communicate
Stuck in my room, how I spent my summer
Spent the summer isolated in a room
Tired of bricks, better work on my jumper
Tired of routine, longing for improvement
I'm by myself I'm sick of it
Feeling exhausted from being alone
My mind's been tellin' me gibberish
Thoughts seem nonsensical or irrational
Like shit will never be different
Believing that nothing will change, feeling defeated
Shut up, give up, you hypocrite
Internal struggle, conflicting thoughts
That's baby talk, no Rugrats
Referencing childhood, indicating the need to grow up
You're grown up now, don't look back
Encouraging self to move forward without looking back
I'm by myself you knew that
Accepting loneliness, acknowledging it as familiar
I'm wonderin' why did you do that
Questioning why someone left, seeking answers
Lately been feelin' like I'm the fakest
Feeling like a fraud or not authentic
Always got time, I always waste it
Wasting time, regretting inaction
Joy's like a bag, I gotta chase it
Pursuing joy but finding it elusive
Deep in my heart it's hard to say this
Struggling to express inner turmoil
Lately been facin' all these doubts
Confronting uncertainties and questioning choices
Should I have taken a different route
Considering if different decisions would have altered the situation
I know that you're busy with movin' out
Realizing the other person's busy life but desiring their time
But is there a time that we could hang out
Requesting time together despite the busyness
It's been a while since you've seen me smile so
Repeated lines highlighting the struggles, desires, and emotional isolation, feeling distant from someone significant
I'm trying to lose the weight that's holdin' me down oh
-I gotta breakaway, I gotta reach out
-I gotta breakaway, I gotta reach out
-I spend my days hidin' pain from my face aye
-I wanna reach out, I don't know what my friends will say
-For now I'm lost, I'll let these thoughts in my head replay
-My mind's a mess, and you just seem so far away
-It's been a while since you've seen me smile so
-I'm trying to lose the weight that's holdin' me down oh
-I gotta breakaway, I gotta reach out
-I gotta breakaway, I gotta reach out
-I spend my days hidin' pain from my face aye
-I wanna reach out, I don't know what my friends will say
-For now I'm lost, I'll let these thoughts in my head replay
-My mind's a mess, and you just seem so far away
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