On Account of an Absence
Reflections on Grief and Redemption
Lyrics
Hope your not looking down on me today
Expressing a hope that someone is not observing or judging the speaker negatively.
I've tried to do my best carrying this weight
Acknowledging the effort to carry a burden or responsibility and striving to do it well.
I know about vengeance upon thee
Referencing a knowledge of vengeance or retribution directed toward the speaker.
I have never forgotten for one second
Emphasizing a continuous and unwavering memory, possibly related to a significant event.
But this was hard
Expressing a difficulty or hardship experienced by the speaker.
You must know I regret that morning more than anything
Regretting a specific morning and expressing it as a significant source of remorse.
And I'd give my life to get it back
Willingness to sacrifice one's life to undo a past event or mistake.
That is not, not to say I don't love this
Clarifying that despite the regret, the speaker still values and loves their current situation.
But there is not one day I can forget
Stressing the inability to forget a particular day, indicating its lasting impact.
There's not one day, there is not one day
Repetition emphasizing the enduring nature of the memories associated with that day.
Sometimes I feel I'm waiting biding time
Expressing a feeling of waiting and passing time without a clear purpose or resolution.
Waiting for something that may never come
Waiting for something uncertain, possibly expressing a sense of anticipation or longing.
Still everything is different
Highlighting a significant change in everything, suggesting a transformative experience.
All was changed, everything
Emphasizing the comprehensive nature of the change, affecting all aspects of life.
All that we live for
Referring to the loss of things that were meaningful and important.
All that we dreamed of taken away
Expressing the pain of losing aspirations and dreams.
Sometimes I swear that I'm waiting for
Expressing a sense of anticipation or expectation, possibly linked to a desire for change.
Something to jump out at me
Feeling alert or on guard, waiting for something unexpected to happen.
Where can you go when they come calling
Pondering the options or places to go when facing challenges or threats.
Where can you hide when they come for you
Questioning where one can find refuge or safety when confronted by adversaries.
Times like this when the walls close in and I can't breathe
Describing a feeling of suffocation or pressure during challenging times.
I call your name
Calling out to someone's name, possibly seeking support or connection during difficult moments.
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