Lyrics
All I am died today
All aspects of my identity or essence ceased to exist today.
All I am died with you
My entire being perished alongside you.
If god's plan is a vacant mess
If the divine plan is chaotic and purposeless,
Then I am at his feet
Then I submit myself at the feet of this disarray.
Barking aloud a cry of torment that can't change anything
Vocally expressing a cry of anguish that cannot alter any circumstances.
My cold dead hands couldn't keep you within my grasp
Despite my desperate attempts, I couldn't retain you in my control.
A fractured recognition
An impaired acknowledgment or understanding.
Doomed to pursue me forevermore
Destined to relentlessly pursue me for eternity.
Apprehending a naïve fragment of serenity
Grasping a small, innocent piece of peace.
Amenity in rejecting sensibility
Finding comfort in rejecting rationality.
A tenacious volition constructed to run from the truth
A determined will constructed to evade the harsh reality.
Sheltering my recklessness in the mangled deconstruction
Protecting my recklessness within the dismantled breakdown.
Of how to contend with that which I can't contain
Struggling with how to deal with what I cannot control.
My imagination only sees what it wants to see
My imagination only perceives what it desires to perceive.
My ingenuity lays barren in the face of defeat
My creativity remains unproductive in the face of failure.
A fantasy in which your coffin stands agape
A fabricated scenario in which your burial site is open.
Digging your way to the surface
Attempting to emerge from the grave,
To console a bleeding nature
To console a bleeding aspect of human nature.
All I am died today
A repetition emphasizing the loss of self today.
All I am died with you
Reiterating the complete annihilation of self in association with you.
They told me that they've never felt so close to god
Others claimed to feel an intimate connection with the divine.
They told me they felt watched
They reported sensing surveillance or scrutiny.
They told me they found faith amidst the chaos
They conveyed discovering faith amidst disorder.
But I haven't found a fucking thing
However, I haven't found anything substantial.
I think I'll see how far I'll sink
I contemplate testing the depths of my despair.
They told me they found heaven's calling
Others asserted hearing a divine call,
Hiding in reflections when no one can see
Hidden in reflections where no one can witness.
You'll just have to see how far you'll sink
You will have to assess how deeply you'll descend.
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