Trainwreck
Journey Through Chaos: Molly O'Neill's Trainwreck Revelations
Lyrics
There's a stranger making faces in the window
Feeling disconnected from oneself, observing oneself as a stranger.
And I keep on forgetting it is me
Consistently forgetting one's own identity or feeling disconnected from it.
And I can't find the cold side of my pillow anymore
Unable to find comfort or solace in familiar things.
Was a bug trapped in a jar now I'm free
Transitioning from feeling confined or trapped to being free.
I can't seem to find the right direction
Feeling lost and unable to determine the right path or direction in life.
My dampened finger right up against the wind
Testing the direction of life, seeking guidance but feeling uncertain.
There's a new spot that is off in my complexion
Noticing flaws or changes in oneself.
And my bangs are looking even but untrimmed
Appearance seems maintained yet unkempt simultaneously.
And if my hands do shake than pull me closer
Desiring closeness despite physical or emotional instability.
The betrayal of my body comes to mind
Feeling betrayed by one's own body or its limitations.
And if my cup decides to boils over
Being overwhelmed or reaching a breaking point.
Then I'm not the only trainwreck you will find
Recognizing that one's struggles are not unique; others also face turmoil.
There's regret in my chest and on my shoulders
Carrying regrets and burdens that have shaped the present.
But I guess I know it all led me to here
Acknowledging that past experiences have led to the current situation.
The gods send all they're famous best promoters
Feeling as though external forces emphasize happiness, denying the need for sadness.
To say life is good and there's no need for tears
Pressure from societal influences to maintain a positive outlook.
And my half filled jar of sodas on the counter
A stagnant situation left unattended until it deteriorates.
It'll stay right there until it grows some mold
Allowing circumstances to decay due to neglect or inaction.
A mirrors match, a brutal self encounter
A reflection revealing a harsh and unapologetic self-assessment.
I'll stare until my eyes have decomposed
Committing to introspection despite its potential to cause emotional harm.
And if my hands do shake than pull me closer
Desiring support despite personal struggles or vulnerabilities.
The betrayal of my body comes to mind
Experiencing a sense of betrayal from one's body or its limitations.
And if my cup decides to boils over
Being at a breaking point where emotions or situations overflow.
Then I'm not the only trainwreck you will find
Recognizing that personal struggles are not isolated; others experience similar turmoil.
And if my cup decides to boils over
Reiteration of reaching a breaking point or emotional overflow.
Then I'm not the only trainwreck you will find
Reinforcing the idea that experiencing turmoil is not an isolated occurrence.
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