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Is it morning or is it afternoon
Uncertainty about the time of day, reflecting a disoriented state.
Light is blinding
The brightness is overwhelming or oppressive.
The sunshine feels foreign on my face
The sunlight feels unfamiliar, possibly symbolizing a sense of alienation.
And all I feel like is a mistake
A feeling of being a mistake or regretful about one's existence.
Got an awful taste in my mouth
An unpleasant sensation, possibly related to emotional pain or regret.
Am I giving up too soon
Contemplation about giving up, questioning the timing.
Wanna get up
Desire to rise but lacking the strength or motivation.
But I can't seem to muster up the strength
Struggling to find the strength to get up.
My sanity is crumbling to waste
The mental state is deteriorating, possibly due to internal struggles.
And a solitary question remains
Pondering a crucial unanswered question about personal honesty.
Am I honest with myself
Reflecting on whether the self is truthful and genuine.
Am I telling the truth to the face in the mirror
Facing and questioning oneself in the mirror.
That's scaring me now half to death
The realization of self-truth is intimidating and frightening.
Am I honest with myself
Continuing self-examination about honesty.
Can I admit when I need help
Exploring the ability to acknowledge the need for assistance.
When I'm still lying in bed at three pm
Admitting to being in bed late, indicating possible struggles.
Saying I'll get up when I feel well enough
Delaying action until feeling well enough, revealing inner conflicts.
Am I honest with myself
Continuing self-reflection on honesty and brokenness.
Am I broken
Questioning personal brokenness and a longing for past vitality.
I used to feel alive
Expressing a shift from feeling alive to numbness.
I'm just numb now
Yearning to replace emptiness with strong emotions like anger or sadness.
I wish I could fill this empty space
Desire for someone to fill the emotional void.
Let anger or sadness take its place
Weighing the option of negative emotions over feeling nothing.
Cause it's better than feeling nothing at all
Acknowledging a need for someone to reassure and comfort.
I need somebody that I can call
Yearning for someone to call for support.
Someone to tell me that it's okay
Seeking reassurance and permission to struggle.
That I just need some serotonin in my brain
Recognizing the need for a boost in serotonin levels.
But am I brave enough to say
Questioning personal bravery to admit vulnerability.
Am I honest with myself
Repeating the inquiry about personal honesty.
Am I telling the truth to the face in the mirror
Revisiting the theme of truthfulness to oneself in the mirror.
That's staring me down half to death
Intensifying fear and confrontation in self-reflection.
Am I honest with myself
Reiterating the importance of being honest with oneself.
Can I admit when I need help
Considering the ability to admit needing help.
When I'm still lying in bed at three am
Revealing struggles while lying in bed late at night.
Hoping I fall asleep and never wake up
Expressing a desire for eternal sleep, reflecting despair.
Am I honest with myself
Repeating the theme of honesty with oneself.
I don't want your pity
Rejection of external emotions and a desire for solitude.
I don't want your love
-I just want to be alone
-I just want to be alone
-I don't want your pity
-I don't want your love
-I just want to be alone
-I just want to be alone
-I don't want your pity
-I don't want your love
-I just want to be alone
-I just want to be alone
-I don't want your pity
-I don't want your love
-But don't you dare leave me alone
-Don't you dare leave me alone
Contradiction in the desire for solitude, fearing loneliness.
Am I honest with myself
Revisiting the theme of honesty amid fear and uncertainty.
That I'm lost and afraid but I need to have faith
Recognizing feelings of being lost and scared but needing faith.
It's okay if things don't always make sense
Acceptance of life's uncertainties and the nonsensical nature of things.
Am I honest with myself
Reiterating the importance of personal honesty.
With any hope that I have left
Clutching onto any remaining hope and striving to be brave.
I've gotta try to be brave as I get up and pray
Expressing a commitment to pray and face challenges with bravery.
That maybe one day I will feel well enough
Longing for a future where well-being is achieved.
If I'm honest with myself
Concluding with an affirmation
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