Birthday Blues
Navigating Birthday Blues: A Melancholic Reflection by Nadine Custers
Lyrics
Wrote myself a birthday card
Expressing self-reflection and introspection by creating a birthday card for oneself.
The one where it's your birthday
Describing the content of the birthday card as themed around the TV show "FRIENDS."
It was FRIENDS themed
Highlighting the choice of a familiar and comforting show for the birthday card.
My comfort show and much more
Emphasizing the importance and depth of the chosen comfort show.
Wrote it one week prior to the twenty-fourth
Indicating the timing of creating the card, a week before the 24th birthday.
May my words blur in my mind
Expressing a desire for the words in the card to become less clear or impactful.
It could count as a surprise
Suggesting that the card may serve as a surprise due to blurred words.
So much mental preparation
Referring to the mental preparation undertaken for the upcoming birthday.
I told myself I wanted to spend it alone
Stating a preference to spend the birthday alone.
But the truth is I was afraid no one would show up
Revealing a fear of potential loneliness if others don't show up.
I get even more sentimental on this day
Admitting heightened sentimentality on the birthday.
I do everything to avoid those birthday blues
Engaging in activities to avoid experiencing the "birthday blues."
No self-pep talk can fill that void
Acknowledging the inadequacy of self-pep talk to fill an emotional void.
And save me from feeling those birthday blues
Expressing a desire to escape the negative emotions associated with birthdays.
I wanna pretend I'm one
Expressing a wish to adopt a carefree attitude toward birthdays.
Of those people that don't care for it
Desiring to emulate those who are indifferent to birthday celebrations.
I'm one year older what's the big deal?
Questioning the significance of aging on the birthday.
But when I blow those candles
Highlighting the moment of making a birthday wish while blowing out candles.
I wish to be loved and celebrated I do I do
Expressing a deep-seated desire for love and celebration on the birthday.
So much mental preparation
Reiterating mental preparation for spending the birthday alone.
I told myself I wanted to spend it alone
Revealing the fear of potential loneliness on the birthday.
But the truth is I was afraid no one would show up
Acknowledging increased sentimental feelings on the birthday.
I get even more sentimental on this day
Continuing efforts to avoid the negative emotions associated with birthdays.
I do everything to avoid those birthday blues
Engaging in activities to prevent experiencing the "birthday blues."
No self-pep talk can fill that void
Recognizing the inability of self-pep talk to fill the emotional void.
And save me from feeling those birthday blues
Expressing a desire to escape the negative emotions associated with birthdays.
I push away push away
Indicating a tendency to push people away, possibly as a defense mechanism.
I delude myself into thinking the choice is mine
Deluding oneself into believing that isolation is a personal choice.
See I need space
Expressing a need for personal space and time alone.
I need alone time
Reiterating the need for solitude.
I don't need anyone
Asserting independence and self-sufficiency, even on the birthday.
Not even on this day
Stating a lack of need for anyone's presence on the birthday.
Not even on my birthday
Emphasizing independence, even on the specific day of one's birth.
The lines are blurred have you forgotten me
Expressing confusion or concern about blurred boundaries and being forgotten.
Have I run away in the nick of time?
Pondering if one has escaped from a situation just in time.
Or are you hoping that you could be here with me?
Questioning if someone wishes to be present on the birthday.
You didn't call my bluff
Reflecting on whether others have seen through defenses and not taken them seriously.
M' I the reason I'm alone?
Considering if one's actions are the cause of being alone on the birthday.
I get even more sentimental on this day
Acknowledging heightened emotional sensitivity on the birthday.
I do everything to avoid those birthday blues
Engaging in activities to avoid experiencing the "birthday blues."
No self-pep talk can fill that void
Recognizing the inability of self-pep talk to fill the emotional void.
And save me from feeling those birthday blues
Expressing a desire to escape the negative emotions associated with birthdays.
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