Belief
Navigating Love's Wilderness: Nicholas Krgovich's Poetic Reflection
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I know somewhere I can be loved,
I am aware of a place where I can find love.
But it's hid deep down, crusted over curling with slugs,
This place is concealed and covered with unpleasant elements.
A belief I've had ever since I was a child,
Since childhood, I have held a belief in this hidden love.
With a sad aesthetic aversion to being free and wild.
I have a tendency to avoid freedom and wildness with a melancholic aesthetic.
Which are things I didn't see in you at all,
I did not perceive these qualities in you.
So at ease and happy to try your hand at anything,
You are comfortable and enthusiastic about trying new things.
Which is just what you did when it came to me,
This is evident in how you approached our relationship.
You saw what there was to see,
You observed everything there was to see.
And decided you only wanted part of it,
You chose only the easy part, neglecting the rest.
The part that's easy.
You opted for simplicity.
Now how did I become the open-hearted one?
I, unexpectedly, became the emotionally open one.
That thought it'd be nice to have more than just weekend fun,
I desired more than just casual weekend enjoyment.
I knew your life couldn't hold it and the timing wasn't right,
I understood your limitations and the timing constraints.
But I did all that I could, and you just rolled over and shut the light,
I made efforts, but you chose to end things abruptly.
On the whole thing...
You closed the chapter on our relationship entirely.
And it's got me going inward, right past myself,
This experience has turned my focus inward, beyond my own self.
And I feel a deeper belonging now, to life itself,
I now feel a profound connection to life itself.
And without lifting a finger, you've given me so many things,
You, without effort, have given me valuable experiences.
Even though it was a fucked up winter.
Despite facing challenges, you contributed to my growth.
And now a fucked up spring.
This challenging winter and spring have shaped my perspective.
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