Guilt
Navigating Love's Conundrum: Nicholas Krgovich's 'Guilt' Reflections
Lyrics
Do I really want to know what is going on with you?
Questioning the desire to understand your situation
For I don't really believe that the things you say are true,
Doubting the veracity of your statements
An inherent condescension, cause I got ten years on you,
Noting a patronizing attitude due to an age difference
So when you say you don't want me,
Accepting rejection as stated
Guess I'll have to take that at face value.
Resigned to accepting rejection at face value
When I told all my friends they all said that you're insane,
Sharing friends' negative opinions about you
But then they'd pause for a moment and be like ""duh, he's 25"",
Friends' justification for your behavior due to age
But I spent all my twenties, atrophied, barely alive,
Reflecting on a wasted, unproductive period
Thought that might even the playing field, a nice thought but a lie.
False belief that shared hardships could balance things
And I've never been taken with anyone like I've with you,
Unprecedented strong feelings for you
And if you're not some rare angel it is hard to see that right now,
Questioning your exceptional qualities currently
I was patient and hopeful, even that seemed to strain on your life,
Struggle with patience and hope in relation to you
And you rearranged my affection into something else.
Feeling that your actions changed affectionate feelings
You say you don't know what you want, But you know you don't want me,
Indicating uncertainty about desires but sure about not wanting a relationship
Maybe there's comfort in that decision,
Suggesting comfort in rejecting a relationship
I guess it's the thing that'll leave you free,
Seeing rejection as liberating
To do as you please,
Emphasizing the freedom in making personal choices
You can go and see that Chris Marker film on Tarkovsky,
Suggesting enjoying activities without feeling guilty
All alone, or with whoever, guilt free,
Reiterating guilt-free enjoyment of activities alone or with others
All alone, or with whoever, guilt free.
Repeating the idea of guiltless enjoyment in various situations
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