Lyrics
I been told to sit down and think about making it short
I've been advised to reflect on and condense my thoughts.
Overthinking is my enemy, I would trade it all
Overthinking is a hindrance, and I'd sacrifice everything to be free from it.
If I could live a day as a brainless freak
If given the chance, I'd choose a day without a complex mind, devoid of worries.
No conscious, no misgivings
Desiring a state of existence without consciousness or doubts.
As a stable soul, as a stand-alone, just to finish my songs and go back to sleep
Yearning for stability, independence, to complete songs, and return to peaceful sleep.
And then I wake up, it's five in the morning
Waking up at 5 AM in distress, experiencing fear and sadness.
I'm sweating, I'm sobbing
Intense emotions, physical discomfort, and distress.
My laptop's gone and my pride's missing
Facing a situation where possessions and pride are stolen.
Someone broke into my house
Dealing with a break-in at home.
Will I stand and face it
Contemplating whether to confront and address the situation.
Another fucked up dream
Recurring disturbing dreams causing difficulty in understanding reality.
It's getting hard to perceive
Reality becoming increasingly challenging to grasp.
Am I here alone? No one's coming home
Questioning if isolation is the current state, with no one returning home.
Now gimme a sign so I can fucking breathe
Seeking a sign or signal for reassurance and relief.
What's this place again
Confusion about the current location or mental state.
Is all of that even real
Doubtful about the reality of past experiences.
I don't know where I've been lately
Feeling lost and unsure of recent whereabouts.
I barely can stand on my feet
Struggling to maintain physical stability.
Everyday is a struggle and yet I keep moving forward
Despite daily challenges, there's a determination to keep moving forward.
Does that mean something's still there
Questioning if persistence indicates something worthwhile.
I'm tired of playing the victim, tired of being tired at all
Expressing weariness of adopting a victim mentality and general fatigue.
And I don't care if the enemy's still here, I'll keep dragging it with me til I run out of air
Unconcerned about the persistence of problems, ready to endure until breathless.
Nothing can stop me at this point
Feeling unstoppable at this point in life.
Even though I don't know where I'll go or what I'll do
Despite uncertainty about the future, there's a commitment to stand up and act.
I'll stand up again and again... And run
Determination to endure challenges repeatedly and continue moving forward.
It feels like I've been granted
Sensing a paradoxical curse that brings pain to affirm one's existence.
A curse that tears me down just to show me that I am still alive
Acknowledging that the hardship signifies being alive.
I know it's been a while
Recognizing the passage of time since facing difficulties.
And if the wolves come at my door
If confronted by challenges ("wolves"), communicating resilience and endurance.
Well let them know I went through it all
Asserting having experienced a wide range of challenges.
I stand I fall, this is my war
Embracing the cycles of standing and falling, portraying life as a personal battle.
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