Lyrics
I don't think that I ever fell in love
I haven't experienced true love
You made me think that I'd never be enough
You led me to believe I was insufficient
Spent so much time trying to be like someone else
Invested time imitating others, lost my true self
I lost myself inside me
I became lost within my own identity
I fell asleep on the train tracks last night hoping that I would not make it out alive
Desperation led me to sleep on train tracks, contemplating not surviving
You woke me up and then you saved me I survived
You intervened, woke me, and saved me; I survived
But I don't wanna fucking be here and that's why
Expressing a strong desire not to be present in life
I fell asleep on the train tracks last night hoping that I would not make it out alive
Repeating the desperate act on train tracks, not wanting to survive
Its not my fault these thoughts enslaved me in my mind
Feelings of enslavement by intrusive thoughts, not my fault
I can't believe that you forgave me and that's why
Grateful for forgiveness, acknowledging why
Codependent, you are my lethal weapon
Describing a codependent relationship as a lethal force
I need you every second
Expressing constant need for the person
Don't know how I ever did this without you
Reflecting on difficulty before finding the person
So glad I found you
Expressing joy at having found the person
Cause everyday is getting better around you
Life improves daily because of the person
Paranoia, OCD, and depression all hit me
Struggling with mental health issues: paranoia, OCD, depression
So Im sorry if I forgot to say you were looking pretty
Apologizing for neglecting compliments due to personal struggles
Im so lost inside my head and thats why you not fucking with me
Feeling lost in one's thoughts, affecting the relationship
Girl your love is an addiction its the reason why I'm living
Acknowledging love as an essential reason for living
I fell asleep on the train tracks last night hoping that I would not make it out alive
Repeating the desperate act on train tracks, not wanting to survive
You woke me up and then you saved me I survived
Reiteration of being saved and surviving
But I don't wanna fucking be here and thats why
Strong desire not to be present in life, repeated
I fell asleep on the train tracks last night hoping that I would not make it out alive
Repeating the desperate act on train tracks, not wanting to survive
Its not my fault these thoughts enslaved me in my mind
Feelings of enslavement by intrusive thoughts, not my fault, repeated
I can't believe that you forgave me and that's why
Grateful for forgiveness, acknowledging why, repeated
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