Lyrics
I think my heart wants
The heart desires something
What my mind can't take
The mind cannot handle it
Could it get any more complicated
Feeling a sense of increased complexity
I hear these walls talk
Perceiving the walls speaking metaphorically
To me every day
Receiving messages from the walls regularly
They keep on telling me I'm gonna make it
The walls encourage the individual to persevere
Every time I look for answers I just find more questions
Seeking answers but finding more questions
I tell myself I'm trying my best
Self-affirmation of giving maximum effort
Every time I open up I learn the same damn lesson
Repeating the same lesson when opening up emotionally
That I really need to do it less
Acknowledging the need to share less
Like whoa
Expressing a sense of astonishment
Push me to the edge I go
Feeling pushed to the limit
Wait until the end you'll know
Anticipating revelation at the end
Everything that's in my soul
Everything within the individual's essence
Parts of me I can't control
Facets of the self that are uncontrollable
These thoughts inside my head go rogue
Unruly thoughts in the mind
I try to stop them with the smoke
Attempting to subdue thoughts with smoke (possibly metaphorical)
Cloudy now I feel them both
Feeling a mixture of confusion
I don't think I'm in control
Questioning personal control
Ah shit, what
Expression of surprise or dismay
I woke up today and felt nauseous
Waking up feeling sick
Drinking until I'm unconscious
Engaging in excessive drinking to escape consciousness
Wonder if I should be cautious
Contemplating the need for caution
I wanted something but not this
Desiring something different from the current situation
Not this look
Displeasure or discomfort with one's appearance
But that's what it took
Accepting the necessity of certain experiences
All these thoughts could write a book
Recognizing the abundance of thoughts
But nobody would read it
Believing that others wouldn't be interested in their thoughts
Yeah nobody would care
Expecting a lack of concern from others
I know it would be easy
Perceiving the ease of keeping thoughts private
If I just never shared
Experiencing rejection when sharing thoughts
Cause every person that I tell
Observing people leaving after disclosure
Always says farewell
Returning to a closed-off state emotionally
I'm back in my shell
Reiterating a sense of being pushed to the limit
Like whoa
Expressing astonishment again
Push me to the edge I go
Feeling pushed to the limit (repeated sentiment)
Wait until the end you'll know
Anticipating revelation at the end (repeated)
Everything that's in my soul
Referencing the entirety of one's essence (repeated)
Parts of me I can't control
Parts of the self that are uncontrollable (repeated)
These thoughts inside my head go rogue
Unruly thoughts in the mind (repeated)
I try to stop them with the smoke
Attempting to subdue thoughts with smoke (repeated)
Cloudy now I feel them both
Feeling a mixture of confusion (repeated)
I don't think I'm in control
Questioning personal control (repeated)
These thoughts inside my head go rogue
Unruly thoughts in the mind (repeated)
I try to stop them with the smoke
Attempting to subdue thoughts with smoke (repeated)
Cloudy now I feel them both
Feeling a mixture of confusion (repeated)
I don't think I'm in control
Questioning personal control (repeated)
Like whoa
Expressing astonishment (repeated)
I don't think I'm in control
Questioning personal control (repeated)
Like whoa
Expressing astonishment (repeated)
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