Lyrics
Wish people knew what went on in My head
Desire for understanding and recognition of inner thoughts.
All I know is most days man wish I Was dead
Often feels overwhelmed and wishes for an end to the struggle.
Understand this isn't what I wanted Instead
Recognition that current circumstances aren't desired.
Want to trade it get a normal life,get Some some real sleep actually hit a Bed
Desire for a normal life, proper rest, and stability.
Music is the place I go when I'm Scared and see red
Music serves as a refuge during times of fear or anger.
Don't be mad at me when i leave you On read
Apology for not responding promptly, prioritizing self-care.
Gotta do for me that's what I said
Emphasis on self-prioritization.
I'm not perfect and never will be it's Something I'm learning
Acknowledgment of imperfection and the ongoing process of learning.
But do me dirty I'm turning to a Fiend
Warning that mistreatment can lead to drastic changes in behavior.
Big hearted person but that comes With a price
Being compassionate comes with a personal cost.
Burdens of your kindness will kill Your mental health and end your life
Kindness can burden mental health and life itself.
Sacrificing everything now ready to Roll the dice
Willingness to take risks after sacrificing a lot.
Things that I say I have to do and Live it twice to learn that price
Repetition and experience are necessary to learn lessons.
Doesn't matter what anyone says I'll Never take that advice
Personal resolve to follow one's instincts over advice.
Because I'm striving to reach what I Think to be paradise
Striving for a personal version of paradise or success.
So with this pair of dice imma roll
Willingness to take chances without hesitation.
And not think twice gotta to do what I think is right
Commitment to acting on personal convictions.
Someone help me understand what's Going on in my head
Desire for understanding and insight into personal thoughts.
In my head
Reiteration of the desire for insight into thoughts.
Can anyone help me that's what I Said
Seeking help to understand one's inner workings.
What I said
Reiteration of seeking assistance.
Need help understanding what's in My head
Continued plea for understanding of personal thoughts.
In my head
Reiteration of the struggle to comprehend personal thoughts.
I don't know
Uncertainty about understanding personal thoughts.
What's going on in my head
Reiteration of confusion regarding personal thoughts.
I feel-good like I'm in my zone, on My thrown
Feeling confident and comfortable, possibly in one's element.
Doing this on my own I gotta know
Independence and determination to seek understanding.
If what I'm doing is right tryin to Reach my milestone
Striving toward personal goals despite obstacles.
But got shit stopping me on my way On this road
Various challenges hindering progress along the chosen path.
But none of you want this smoke
Confidence in facing challenges; others may not handle it.
This ain't no joke
Seriousness about the difficulties being faced.
Keep goin and You'll get the next episode cause I'm Ready to explode
Feeling ready to express intense emotions and move forward.
You know this is what I'm use too
Familiarity with the current situation despite reluctance to change.
But I refuse to change is that abuse?
Questioning the necessity of change despite recognizing its need.
Neglecting myself and others has Been the excuse
Admitting using neglect as an excuse for oneself and others.
No more I'm tired and done I'm Ready to improve
Tired of the past behavior, seeking improvement.
I want to move in the right direction
Desire for positive progress and growth.
Not stressin what I see my Perception just bothers me leaves me Guessing
Feeling bothered by uncertain perceptions.
Ready for my resurrection I want to Be molded into perfection
Yearning for personal transformation and improvement.
And I'm Telling you this without any Question
Asserting determination without any doubt.
Running from your problems will Never fix your depression
Running away from problems won't solve mental health issues.
No matter how hard you cover it We'll always see that expression
Attempts to hide emotions will still be visible.
That's why I'm standing here, Recording this song, having this session
Reflecting on the current action of self-expression through music.
Hopefully what I speak is teaching lessons
Hoping that the message conveyed imparts valuable lessons.
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