Lyrics
He told me that I'm not the one to live a lie
Expressing that someone advised against living a dishonest life.
I'm honest with these feelings so they don't keep me up at night
Stating the importance of honesty to avoid inner turmoil.
This is a message for the friends who I never wished the best
A message directed at friends not deserving positive wishes.
Couldn't tell you who I was without exposing all the rest
Unable to define oneself without revealing vulnerabilities.
After all of this I'm worn out, to be sure
Feeling exhausted after enduring a challenging experience.
I couldn't make a martyr out of her
Failed to turn someone into a martyr, possibly a failed relationship.
Everyday is like falling, they'll come to see
Life feels like a continuous fall, observed by others.
This poor man staving for a break
A person struggling for a break or opportunity in life.
It's the apathetic sympathy they tried throwing my way
Receiving unfeeling sympathy from others.
It's the panicked mess of me that makes it so hard to remain
The chaotic aspects of the individual make it challenging to persist.
It's like a blanket doused with shame that makes me feel I can't relate
Shameful experiences create a barrier to relating to others.
If you take me at my word all the voices sound the same
If taken at face value, all opinions seem indistinguishable.
Nothing else that I could say
Nothing else to say, perhaps a sense of resignation.
I can still hear them call my name
Hearing a persistent call or reminder of the past.
Couldn't see a thing through this opaque pane
Unable to see clearly through an obstructed view.
Smile, try to speak couldn't save my face
Attempting to smile and speak but failing to maintain composure.
I don't even know this fucking person I became
Feeling disconnected from one's own identity.
Time and time again
Repeated experiences of drifting towards an inevitable conclusion.
We drift further toward the end
A sense of moving away from something, possibly a relationship or goal.
Only heartless fools are left
Only those lacking empathy or compassion remain.
As the cold of winter lends
Winter symbolizing a cold and numb emotional state.
To the numbness of your skin
The physical and emotional numbness intensifies.
And the walls they keep you in
Feeling confined within emotional walls.
Hard to breathe with air so thin
Struggling to breathe in a suffocating environment.
Only question now is when
Contemplating the timing of an inevitable outcome.
This tightness in my chest will never leave
Expressing a persistent feeling of tightness in the chest.
Will death bring me some peace?
Questioning if death could bring peace.
Could I find something to believe?
Contemplating the possibility of finding something to believe in.
Is what I'm searching for something that's always out of reach?
Reflecting on the elusive nature of what is being sought.
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