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If you happen to hear this
If you hear this message
Know that I’ve taken those words to heart
Acknowledging that the words mentioned have deeply affected me
My mind is so sick of fighting against itself
Struggling with internal conflicts and mental exhaustion
And I
Expressing a personal state of being
Well I am looking forward to change
Anticipating and desiring positive change in the future
Just pull me closer
Seeking emotional closeness
While living in the absence of your touch
Feeling the absence of physical connection
This bed feels so much colder
Perceiving emotional coldness in the surroundings
Than I remember in the dead of the winter
Comparing current emotional state to a colder memory
The morning brought on mourning
Morning symbolizing sorrow or loss
A blessed funeral for the change
Celebrating change despite pain
I’m am broken
Feeling emotionally shattered
I am guilty
Acknowledging guilt
Forgive me
Requesting forgiveness
You were right
Accepting someone else's correctness
All this time
Realizing the duration of mistakes
I let this loss control my life
Letting loss control life
And denied myself any once of bliss that I could find.
Denying personal happiness due to loss
I promise
Promising future well-being
That some day
Expressing hope for eventual recovery
I will be just fine
Confidence in personal healing
Well I regret everything I said
Regretting past statements
And I have to live with it
Accepting consequences and living with regret
Maybe one day I’ll learn see
Hoping for future learning and self-love
That love should start with me
Realizing the importance of self-love in relationships
This Guilt is what I’ve lived with
Guilt as a persistent companion
A trait I’ve learned in youth
Learned guilt from a young age
It’s been gnawing at my ears and screams
Guilt causing internal turmoil
It’s all because you
Attributing guilt to another person
Now when I think of home
Feeling loneliness when thinking of home
It sounds so lonely to me
Home evoking a sense of isolation
Yet no one knows
Unrecognized emotional struggles
How coming home
Homecoming feeling like personal demise
Felt like the end of me
Emotional struggle associated with returning home
You’ve made it easy to love again,
Expressing the ease of loving again
Because nothing will hurt like losing you
Emphasizing the pain of losing the person
I should have never left
Regretting the decision to leave
I am gold, still yearning to shine
Symbolizing personal value and potential
Still searching for sunlight
Continuing the search for positivity
I am gold still yearning to shine
Striving for self-improvement without hiding
No curtain to hide behind
Choosing transparency over concealment
I have grown so tired of fighting against myself
Tired of internal struggles hindering progress
Preventing progress, preventing any sort of happiness
Recognizing hindrance to personal growth and happiness
All in the name love. When honest love can’t be given
Highlighting the importance of self-love in relationships
Without first loving myself.
Emphasizing the necessity of self-love before giving it to others
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