Lyrics
You told me to work on myself sometimes
You advised me to focus on self-improvement at times
But it's hard when you're always on my mind
Difficult when you're constantly in my thoughts
I'll try it in the dark of night
I'll attempt self-improvement during the night
But that's when the thought of you comes by
Struggling as thoughts of you resurface in the dark
Any other time of day I forget what I wanna say
Forgetful during the day, especially what I want to express
Forget what I even do
Losing track of my actions
Cause all I do is think of you
Constantly preoccupied with thoughts of you
I'm helpless
Feeling powerless or unable to control these emotions
The way I'm here all day and night
Being present both day and night
It's useless
Frustration with the perceived futility of the situation
My heart doesn't sit still, why?
Heart continuously restless, seeking understanding
Can't I spend my time thinking about something else?
Questioning the inability to focus on other things
I'll try to clear my head now
Attempting to clear thoughts and gain clarity
But I can't help that it's myself
Realization that the struggle is internal, with oneself
So I'll just sit here and nurse my tea
Sitting alone, contemplating, and nursing a cup of tea
Just waiting until you're through with me
Waiting patiently until you decide to end the connection
'Cause I know this is how it ends
Acknowledging that this is the inevitable conclusion
It's always something that I gotta amend
Recognizing a pattern of having to amend things
I try to keep my distance well
Attempting to maintain distance to avoid pain
'Cause if I don't, I'll be going through Hell
Aware that not doing so will lead to emotional suffering
It's just a little thing that hurts
Highlighting the impact of seemingly small hurts
But through the night it'll just get worse
Anticipating increasing emotional pain throughout the night
I'm helpless
Feeling helpless and unable to break the cycle
The way I'm here all day and night
Continuing to be present day and night, intensifying emotions
It's useless
Frustration with the perceived futility of the situation (repeated)
My heart doesn't sit still, why?
Heart remaining restless and unsettled (repeated)
Can't I spend my time thinking about something else?
Questioning the inability to focus on something else (repeated)
I'll try to clear my head now
Attempting once more to clear thoughts and gain clarity
But I can't help that it's myself
Realization that the struggle is internal, with oneself (repeated)
It's myself
Affirmation of being stuck in self-reflective thoughts
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