Lyrics
With 17 I stopped eating And thought
At the age of 17, the singer stopped eating, believing it signified control over their life.
that meant I am in control
Perceived control over life through the act of stopping eating.
Of my life
The act of not eating is a way for the singer to feel in control of their own life.
I lost weight and all my friends
As a result of not eating, the singer lost weight and friends.
I told myself I am
Self-identification as 'different' due to the decision to stop eating.
Just different
Expressing a sense of distance and difference from others.
You’re so distant, you look different
Observation of perceived distance and difference in appearance from others.
All these years that I have been
Reflection on the years spent relying on supplements for sustenance.
Living life on supplements
Life has been sustained through the use of supplements for an extended period.
I’m hungry
Expressing a feeling of hunger.
I’m hungry
Reiteration of the hunger the singer is experiencing.
So let me Eat up
Desire to eat and satisfy the hunger.
I’m gonna feed myself like a mother
Comparison of self-nourishment to a mother feeding her child.
would feed her child
Commitment to nourish oneself as a mother would care for her child.
I’m gonna hold my body like a father
Commitment to hold one's body with care, similar to a father holding a newborn.
would hold his new born
Desire to treat one's body with the same care as a father holding a newborn.
With 21 I got nauseous
At the age of 21, the singer experienced nausea, possibly related to an eating disorder.
I threw up and out of balance
Act of throwing up and feeling out of balance.
Rope-dancing In my basement
Metaphorical depiction of a precarious situation through "rope-dancing in the basement."
I got freckles and a black eye
Physical effects such as freckles and a black eye from personal struggles.
I lost myself in a fight
Loss of self in a personal battle, possibly against internal struggles.
Against me
Expressing a struggle against oneself.
Against my own body
Struggling against one's own body, possibly indicating internal conflict.
All these years that I have been
Reflecting on the years spent relying on supplements for sustenance (repeated).
Living life on supplements
Life sustained through the use of supplements (repeated).
I’m hungry
Expressing a feeling of hunger (repeated).
I’m hungry
Reiteration of the hunger the singer is experiencing (repeated).
So let me Eat up
Desire to eat and satisfy the hunger (repeated).
I’m gonna feed myself like a mother
Comparison of self-nourishment to a mother feeding her child (repeated).
would feed her child
Commitment to nourish oneself as a mother would care for her child (repeated).
I’m gonna hold my body like a father
Commitment to hold one's body with care, similar to a father holding a newborn (repeated).
would hold his new born
Desire to treat one's body with the same care as a father holding a newborn (repeated).
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