Lyrics
When did I learn oh when did I learn to twist my face like that
Expressing uncertainty about when the speaker learned a particular facial expression.
Taxidermy bugs the memory of my childhood
Reflecting on the impact of taxidermy on the speaker's childhood memories.
You taught me that shit like that builds character
Recalling being taught that challenging experiences build one's character.
Get it off my chest my message met with radio silence
Describing frustration at receiving no response or acknowledgment for a message.
How much longer 'till I'm safe
Questioning how much longer the speaker will feel safe or secure.
Stuck in a cycle of my own creation
Feeling trapped in a repetitive and self-created pattern.
I'm nearing bedrock and I'm deadlock with my own self hatred
Expressing a deep level of self-hatred and feeling stuck at a fundamental level.
You love I loathe you give I take
Describing a conflicted relationship where love is reciprocated with loathing.
It's how we were raised
Suggesting that the complex relationship dynamics are a result of upbringing.
When did I start oh when did I start to lose my grip
Reflecting on the gradual loss of control and stability.
Saturday morning how I mourn I'm trying
Mourning the difficulty of Saturday mornings, possibly a time of reflection or struggle.
You taught me that I'm my own worst enemy
Acknowledging being taught that the speaker is their own worst enemy.
Most nights my pillow turns to a shoulder to cry on
Describing emotional vulnerability, using a pillow as a metaphor for seeking comfort.
How much farther 'till I break
Questioning how much longer until the speaker reaches a breaking point.
Stuck in the backseat of my roaming daydream
Feeling confined in a passive state, unable to actively pursue aspirations.
I'm holding on to something long gone and I'm suffocating
Holding onto something that is no longer present and feeling suffocated as a result.
My lungs are filled with yesterday
Expressing the burden of carrying past experiences in the speaker's thoughts.
It's how we were raised
Attributing certain behaviors or struggles to the way the speaker was raised.
There might be something in salvation
Suggesting the possibility of finding redemption or relief.
There might be heaven in the moments in between our waking breaths
Highlighting the potential for happiness in the moments between breaths.
But if yesterdays keep weighing on me
Expressing concern that the weight of past experiences may prevent moving forward.
There'll be nothing left
Anticipating a sense of emptiness if the burden of the past persists.
You taught me
Reiterating the idea that the speaker was taught certain lessons, possibly by someone significant.
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