I'm Not Okay
Echoes of Despair: Pasteldrip's Haunting Tale
Lyrics
Feel my eyes sink back in ma' skull
Expressing a feeling of exhaustion or weariness, possibly due to emotional or mental strain.
No drug could play me a fool
Rejecting the idea that any substance or drug could deceive or manipulate the speaker.
I'm so tired of waistin' my time
Conveying frustration about wasting time on something unproductive or unsatisfying.
When there's no one here by my side
Feeling a sense of loneliness or isolation with no one around for support.
Just when I thought everything's fine
Highlighting a sudden realization that everything is not as okay as it seemed.
Something's gotta get on my mind
Suggesting the intrusion of troubling thoughts or concerns into the speaker's mind.
Keep my head held high they said
Recalling advice to maintain a positive attitude despite challenges.
But these voices say I'm better off dead
Contrasting the external advice with internal struggles, indicating a desire for release from pain.
Benzos in my head
Referring to the presence of benzodiazepines, possibly as a means of coping with anxiety or stress.
I'm doin' fine, but not invincible
Acknowledging a semblance of well-being but recognizing vulnerability and limitations.
Got no recollection bout the things that happened years ago
Admitting a lack of memory or awareness regarding events from the past.
I could use a sign baby, hope it ain't impossible, if I could save a life
Expressing a longing for a sign or guidance, with a plea for the possibility of saving a life.
It'd be nothing but to feel
Stating that the speaker's greatest desire is to feel something significant.
My eyes sink back in ma' skull
Repeating the earlier sensation of eyes sinking back, possibly emphasizing a recurring emotional strain.
No one can escape this hell hole
Affirming the inescapability of a distressing situation or emotional state.
I'm so tired of waistin' my time
Reiterating frustration about wasting time, possibly emphasizing its persistence.
When there's no one here by my side
Repeating the sense of solitude, indicating a continuing lack of support.
Wishin' I could see all my friends
Expressing a wish to reconnect with friends or past connections.
Wishin' I could just play pretend
Expressing a desire to escape reality and engage in make-believe or fantasy.
Keep my head held high they said
Repeating advice to maintain a positive demeanor, despite the inner turmoil.
But these voices say I'm better off dead
Reiterating the internal conflict, with a suggestion that the voices are pushing for a negative outcome.
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