Lullaby
Experiencing Loneliness and Longing: 'Lullaby' by Peacock Affect
Lyrics
I was crying
I experienced deep emotional distress.
Making movements that didn't go
I engaged in futile actions or gestures.
I never chose not to have a body in my head
I did not choose to exist without a physical presence in my thoughts.
So how does it feel not to of had someone touch you for twenty two years
How does it feel to lack physical intimacy for twenty-two years?
Don't ask me
I don't have an answer; don't inquire.
I'm not supposed to know what that's like
I am not meant to understand that experience.
Sort of maybe
Possibly, to some extent.
Actually yes
Indeed, yes.
Whilst humans are problematic
While humans pose challenges,
I'll explore different things that tell me I'm subjective
I will explore various experiences affirming my subjectivity.
And I don't want to go there but I still keep on going there
Despite not wanting to explore certain aspects, I find myself doing so repeatedly.
And every night I dream and wake up wishing it wasn't a dream
Every night, I dream, and upon waking, I wish it wasn't merely a dream.
You can ship wreck the moor away
You can distance yourself from emotional turmoil.
Oh everybody hates being alone
Everyone dislikes being alone.
I've got blood all over my leg
I have visible signs of injury on my leg.
What the fuck do you want from me now
Expressing frustration or confusion about expectations placed on me.
Lullaby
Referencing a lullaby.
Sing me a lullaby
Requesting to be comforted through a lullaby.
Lullaby
Reiteration of the desire for a lullaby.
Sing me a lullaby
Repeating the request for a lullaby.
An exhausting lullaby
Describing the lullaby as draining or tiring.
A lonely Lullaby
Characterizing the lullaby as isolating.
One that goes on and on
Describing the lullaby as continuous.
I never chose an exhausting lullaby
I did not choose a tiring lullaby.
By the lake we decided this is our place
By the lake, a significant decision was made about a shared space.
I just wish I could have some happy times
Expressing a desire for joyful experiences.
I never chose an exhausting lullaby
I did not choose a tiring lullaby.
A lonely Lullaby
Reiteration of a lonely lullaby.
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