Lyrics
The waiting drove me mad
The anticipation caused me great distress.
You're finally here and I'm a mess
Your arrival has left me emotionally unsettled.
I take your entrance back
I regret welcoming you.
Can't let you roam inside my head
I can't allow you to occupy my thoughts.
I don't want to take what you can give
I'm not interested in accepting what you can offer.
I would rather starve than eat your bread
I prefer to go hungry than to accept your support.
I would rather run but I can't walk
I'd rather avoid the situation, but I'm unable to.
Guess I'll lay alone just like before
I'll remain solitary as I did in the past.
I'll take the varmint's path
I'll choose a challenging and unconventional path.
Oh, and I must refuse your test
I won't comply with your demands or expectations.
A-push me and I will resist
If you push me, I'll resist and stand my ground.
This behavior's not unique
This behavior is not exclusive to me.
I don't want to hear from those who know
I don't want advice from those who claim to understand.
They can buy but can't put on my clothes
They may have resources but can't experience my life.
I don't want to limp for them to walk
I won't feign weakness for them to feel superior.
Never would have known of me before
No one would have noticed me previously.
I don't want to be held in your debt
I don't want to be indebted to you.
I'll pay it off in blood let I be wed
I'll repay any obligation with my own sacrifice.
I'm already cut up and half dead
I'm already emotionally wounded and depleted.
I'll end up alone like I began
I'll likely end up alone, just like the beginning.
Everything has chains, absolutely nothing's changed
Everything in life has its constraints, and nothing is fundamentally different.
Take my hand, not my picture, spilled my tincture
Choose to hold my hand, not just observe my external appearance, and I've lost something valuable.
I don't want to take what you can give
Reiteration of the unwillingness to accept what you offer.
I would rather starve than eat your breast
Reinforces the preference for personal struggle over dependency.
All the things that others want for me
Desire for things others wish for me, but I can't obtain them.
Can't buy what I want because it's free
I can't obtain what I desire because it's freely available.
Can't buy what I want because it's free
Repetition of the idea that what's desired is free and therefore unattainable.
Can't be what you want because I
I can't conform to your expectations because I
Why ain't it supposed to be just fun?
Questioning why life can't simply be enjoyable.
Oh, to live and die, let it be done
To live and die without unnecessary complications.
I figure I'll be damned
Acceptance of potential damnation in solitude.
All alone like I began
Expectation of being alone as at the start.
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