Quietest Friend
Unveiling the Silent Pain: Pedro the Lion's Reflection on Betrayal and Redemption
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Staving off rejection, which always hurt like hell
Attempting to avoid rejection, a painful experience in the past.
I took the devil's bargain, made a stranger of myself
Made a deal with the devil, changed myself into a stranger.
If anything was wrong, I couldn't tell
Unable to perceive if something was wrong.
So I didn't see it coming but now it's pretty clear
Unexpected events are now clear in retrospect.
I traded my own wisdom for a jury of my peers
Exchanged personal wisdom for the judgment of others.
I ignored you for thirty years
Ignored someone for three decades.
You don't have to tell me
Acknowledging no need for the speaker to explain.
How hard it must have been
Acknowledges the difficulty faced by the other person.
For you to let me in
Recognizing the challenge of being allowed into someone's life.
Nothing lasts forever
Highlighting the impermanence of things.
Now I understand
Now comprehending a past situation.
I hurt you again
Regret for causing pain once again.
My quietest friend
Referring to the person as the quietest friend, possibly someone not expressing their feelings openly.
Fifth grade in the lunchroom, fickle friends were telling jokes
Recalling a specific incident in fifth grade where friends made jokes at the expense of someone.
Making you the punchline of some random thing I wrote
The person being joked about becomes the punchline of a written piece.
They were looking to me to land the final blow
Pressure to deliver a final blow to be included in the group.
Just to be included, went straight up to my head
Acted to be included, not realizing the consequences.
I thought the joke too stupid for it to matter what I said
Underestimated the impact of words spoken.
I was wrong but I went along with it
Admits the mistake but went along with it.
You don't have to tell me
Reiteration of not needing an explanation.
How hard it must have been
Acknowledging the difficulty faced by the other person in letting the speaker in.
For you to let me in
Recognizing the impermanence of relationships.
Nothing lasts forever
Understanding a past situation that led to hurting the other person.
Now I understand
Reflecting on the lasting impact of actions.
I hurt you again
Expressing regret for causing pain once again.
My quietest friend
Referring to the person as the quietest friend, emphasizing their reserved nature.
We could write me some reminders
Suggesting a collaborative effort to create reminders.
I'd memorize them
Willingness to memorize the reminders.
I could sing them to myself
Intending to sing the reminders privately.
And whoever's listening
Not specifying the audience for the singing, possibly oneself or others.
I could put them on a record
Considering putting the reminders on a record related to one's hometown.
About my hometown
Describing the current activity of writing with pen and paper.
Sitting here with pen and paper
Present and attentive, ready to listen.
I'm listening now
A confirmation of attention and receptiveness.
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