Lyrics
I ain't gonna cap I might cry on this hoe
Expressing honesty, acknowledging potential vulnerability
Need to cry to my bro
Seeking emotional support from a close friend
Cause I'm feeling all wack
Feeling emotionally off or not oneself
When I die will they know
Concern about legacy or how others perceive them after death
When I die will it show that the bad coup wasn't so bad
Questioning the severity of past mistakes in hindsight
Eli do you hear where I'm coming from
Asking for understanding from someone named Eli
Brother why they do us wrong
Questioning why they've been mistreated
I don't really know
Uncertain about reasons behind mistreatment
But I'm trying to get this love for me
Striving for self-love
And I can't even get this love for me
Struggling to attain self-love despite efforts
Cause I'm worried worried worried about her company
Anxious about the attention of someone
Why he find love inside the company
Curious about why someone found love within a close circle
I wanna know
Expressing a desire for understanding
I wanna hear it
Wanting to listen and comprehend
In the backseat cause I ain't steering
Feeling passive or out of control in a situation
I got touch as my love but I never feel it
Having physical touch but lacking emotional connection
Why the past always reappearing
Questioning why past issues keep resurfacing
Why the past
Wondering about the persistence of past problems
Why the past never go away
Reflecting on the inability of the past to fade
Only when I want it then it goes away
Contemplating control over the past's influence
I'm just tryna rekindle a stolen flame
Trying to reignite a lost connection or passion
Hope they remember remember name
Hoping for remembrance and recognition
Tell me is this love
Questioning the authenticity of love
This how it feel
Wondering if current feelings equate to love
Cause I thought I seen it
Doubting past experiences of love
Now I'm 22 and I've been up on venus
Metaphorically mentioning being on another planet at 22
Did you
Asking for confirmation or clarification
Did you really mean it
Questioning the sincerity of a past expression of love
When you wrote you love me on my birthday
Reflecting on a past declaration of love
Cause I've been smoking cookies in the worst ways
Engaging in self-destructive behavior (smoking)
And all that shit you did to mom it really hurt me
Expressing pain caused by someone's actions towards their mother
I can't trust no one cause they gone hurt me
Difficulty trusting others due to past hurt
Better love me now cause I know I ain't turning 30
Embracing self-love, uncertain about longevity
To keep it real I'm thinking 28
Speculating about an age milestone with uncertainty
I placed some hateful words for you where where I've been afraid
Expressing regret for hurtful words spoken
But I got word of where the heaven waits
Knowing of a positive destination despite current struggles
I guess you never could be late if you never came
Reflecting on the absence of someone
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