dumb fat weakling
Embracing Contradictions: Identity, Beauty, and Struggle
Lyrics
I am beauty
I assert my beauty.
I am sexy
I assert my sexiness.
A dumb fat weakling
I identify myself as a foolish, overweight, and weak person.
I am beauty
I reiterate my assertion of beauty.
I am sexy
I reiterate my assertion of sexiness.
A dumb fat weakling
I reiterate my identification as a foolish, overweight, and weak person.
I was going to myself
I contemplated self-harm.
I hated life and
I despised life and
I hated you
I despised you.
But I can't hurt you
Despite my feelings, I cannot harm you.
Or fight a memory
I can't erase or combat a painful memory.
Powerless I am still
I feel powerless.
Spit me kick me
Expressing vulnerability, inviting mistreatment.
Punch me choke me
Describing physical abuse.
The things I make you
The consequences of my actions affect you.
Although I love you
Despite my love, I become a negative force.
A shitty weakling
Characterizing oneself as a worthless weakling.
Becomes a cruel thing
Transforming into a harmful entity.
I have no answer
Expressing uncertainty about what to do.
What should I do
Pleading for guidance or assistance.
I am beauty
Repeating the assertion of beauty.
I am sexy
Repeating the assertion of sexiness.
A dumb fat weakling
Reiterating the identification as a foolish, overweight, and weak person.
A dumb fat weakling
-I am beauty
Repeating the assertion of beauty.
I am sexy
Repeating the assertion of sexiness.
A dumb fat weakling
Reiterating the identification as a foolish, overweight, and weak person.
A dumb fat weakling
-Help me give back
Pleading for assistance in returning what has been received.
What's given to me
Expressing a desire to reciprocate what has been given.
I have no tears
Claiming a lack of tears, indicating emotional numbness.
It feels nothing
Describing a lack of emotional response.
In my mind
Emphasizing a lack of feeling in the mind.
It feels nothing
Emphasizing a lack of feeling in the heart.
In my heart
Emphasizing a lack of feeling in the body.
It feels nothing
Stating a lack of sensation in the body.
In my body
Expressing an absence of physical sensation.
It feels nothing
Highlighting a lack of feeling in life.
It's my life
Asserting a lack of emotional connection to life.
It feels nothing
Reiterating a lack of emotional connection to life.
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