You're So Stuck You're Complacent
Breaking Chains: A Poignant Reflection on Family, Addiction, and Escape
Lyrics
I don't wanna live in this world Anymore
I feel a strong desire to escape from the world.
The pack of Marlboros sit out On the porch
A pack of cigarettes is left on the porch, suggesting a habit or routine.
Glance to my left, eyes on my Feet to yelling in the car to Crying in the backseat
Observing a range of emotions, from yelling in the car to crying in the backseat.
Just roll it up a drug induced State, a hollow conversation That you can't relate
Engaging in drug-induced states and shallow conversations that lack connection.
To your father, to your brother To your lover, or to your Mother
Highlighting the inability to relate to family members (father, brother, lover, mother).
She will pop a pill and call it Day
A woman takes a pill to cope with her day.
your child's in the back Room wanting to play
A child in the backroom wants to play, contrasting with the troubled atmosphere.
It's like a fucking child trauma That I can't escape
Describing a traumatic experience that feels inescapable.
Twenty years old lying on my Fucking face
Reflecting on being twenty years old and lying in a challenging situation.
Yelling at the sky
Expressing frustration by yelling at the sky.
You said hold your breath
An instruction or suggestion to hold one's breath.
You said hold your breath
-When I left home I should've Fucking died
Regretting not dying when leaving home.
Sleeping with the dead in the Middle of the night
Sleeping among the dead in an unfamiliar place.
Under a roof of some house That isn't mine
-Next to the woods feeling lost In time
Feeling lost and disconnected next to the woods.
Took four years just to realize
Realizing the difficulty of understanding oneself after four years.
That the blood inside my body Never felt like mine
Expressing a sense of detachment from one's own blood and body.
Generation's drug abuse and Family betrayal
Referring to a generational pattern of drug abuse and family betrayal.
Your hidden little secrets Caused your skin to turn pale
Secrets have taken a toll, evident in pale skin.
Just give me a minute to collect My thoughts
Requesting a moment to gather thoughts.
All the lies your told me
Reflecting on lies told and material possessions acquired.
All the shit I bought
-I bet you didn't see this coming
Surprise at the unexpected outcome after two decades.
Twenty years down the road You'd have nothing
Acknowledging a situation where nothing substantial is left after twenty years.
And I don't even blame you
Expressing understanding and empathy towards the source of heartache and pain.
Cause I felt the heart ache I saw The pain too
-The monsters in my closet have Caused it to come out tonight
Confronting internal struggles represented by monsters and manic episodes.
A manic episode will explode And gravitate to life
-While you were right here but So far away
Feeling a paradoxical closeness yet distance in a relationship.
The explosions in the sky gave Light to the day
Observing explosions in the sky illuminating the day while someone remains passive.
But you just stood right there Staring off into space
-I was seven years old feeling Stuck in place
Recalling a feeling of being stuck at seven years old, persisting at twenty.
And now i'm twenty years old kinda feeling The Same
Noting a continuation of feeling stuck in the same way at twenty.
I guess it runs in the family
Suggesting a hereditary aspect to the feeling of being stuck or lost.
I guess i'm losing my way
Admitting to losing one's way and a sense of confusion.
I guess
Indicating an unresolved situation or uncertainty.
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