Even If I Don't
Longing at Dawn: Yearning for Reconciliation
Lyrics
I miss you most in the morning
I experience the strongest sense of longing for you in the morning.
Most every morning I wake up thinking
Almost every morning, I wake up with thoughts of you.
I could call, I could come visit
I contemplate the possibility of reaching out to you—calling or visiting.
I could come running, we could relive it
I consider the option of reliving our past by coming to you.
But when I think of all that we've been through
Reflecting on our shared experiences, returning to you seems unwise.
Going back to you seems such a foolish thing to do
Going back to you appears foolish considering our history.
I hope you know that even if I don't I wanted to
Even if I don't express it, I want you to know that I wished to.
All those words you said at the ending
Your words at the end were revealing, and I can't forget them.
Were pretty revealing and I can't forget them
We struggled to connect in various ways despite our efforts.
All those ways we missed at connecting
Our attempts at connection consistently led back to what I couldn't provide.
Despite all our trying it always came back to
(Repeated) Our efforts repeatedly circled back to my limitations.
What I couldn't give you
(Repeated) Our struggles revolved around what I couldn't give you.
So when I think of starting up again
Contemplating the idea of restarting or becoming friends seems impossible.
Or trying to be friends it seems impossible to do
The prospect of trying to be friends or starting over feels challenging.
I hope you know that even if we can't I wanted to
Even if it's not feasible, I want you to know that I desired it.
Who knows why two people perfectly aligned
Questioning why two perfectly matched individuals end up separated.
Should ever have to find themselves apart
Expressing the difficulty of understanding why separation occurs.
I'll never understand my heart
I will never comprehend the workings of my own heart.
I miss you most in the morning
Similar to the first line, I feel the strongest yearning for you in the morning.
Most every morning I wake up crying
Almost every morning, I wake up with tears, indicating emotional distress.
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