Lyrics
I feel the blood rushing through my veins
I sense the flow of blood in my veins
The panic is driving me insane
The anxiety is causing me great distress
And all i can do is wait for a better day
All I can do is anticipate a better day
Where i can take this pain away
A day when I can alleviate this pain
In my darkest hours i am holding on
In my darkest moments, I cling to my resolve
To what i promised myself
I'm holding on to the promises I made to myself
Ill never fall back again even if i pretend
Even if I pretend, I won't regress
Am i strong enough to make
Questioning my strength to endure
It through the night? Will it be alright?
Can I make it through the night? Will it be alright?
Im doubting myself
Self-doubt has taken hold
Im drowning in my own intrusive thoughts
I'm overwhelmed by my own intrusive thoughts
Pull my under the waves and Ill be lost but
They pull me beneath the waves, and I feel lost
I still keep holding my breath
Yet, I persist in holding my breath
For as long as i can
For as long as I can, I resist succumbing
Holding out for a helping hand
Waiting for a helping hand to reach out
I don't feel no blood in my hands
No sensation of blood in my hands
I just woke up
Just waking up to a new reality
My veins show the way to the point
My veins guide me to the point of closure
At which it's over it looks so blue
Where it all ends, appearing serene and blue
I think it's rustling
I sense a rustling, an emptiness, a numbness
A little empty, a little numb
It's like a mirror reflecting nothingness
It's like a mirror inside of nothing
A mirror within emptiness
A mirror inside of nothing
I see myself and feel a strong urge to stab the emptiness
I see myself and the urge to
The desire to stab is intense, no room for deception
Stab it, is so high, i can't be bluffin
My mind contemplates stabbing, no bluffing involved
My head's stumbling over these
My thoughts stumble over stones in my mind
Stones made of thoughts
These stones are thoughts with no purpose or cause
Which have no use or cause
Thoughts seem obnoxious, lacking meaning
No it seems so abnoxious
Now it appears overwhelmingly repulsive
Im doubting myself
Self-doubt persists
Im drowning in my own intrusive thoughts
Drowning in intrusive thoughts
Pull my under the waves and Ill be lost but
Pulled under the waves, feeling lost
I still keep holding my breath
Continuing to hold my breath
For as long as i can
Resisting as long as possible
Holding out for a helping hand
Longing for a helping hand
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