Lyrics
I can’t concentrate,
I am struggling to focus.
I can’t find my grip, I’m falling,
I feel like I'm losing control and descending.
Just a little later than I really wanted.
I'm experiencing a delay in my actions, not as soon as I intended.
That’s all that it takes sometimes,
Sometimes a small setback is enough to make decisions.
To decide I'm not gonna sit here,
I won't passively endure difficulties; I won't wait to give up.
And wait to die.
I won't wait idly for death; I'll take action.
We’ve endured this disaster before,
We have faced challenges like this before.
Just remember this destruction is the key to becoming more.
Recognize that destruction is a catalyst for growth.
This is all that I wanted,
This situation is all I desired.
Is something missing?
Is there something crucial missing?
Witness the abyss,
Observe the profound emptiness.
Wait a minute, doesn’t everyone feel like this?
Doesn't everyone experience similar feelings?
Finishing what I started,
Completing what I initiated when no one is paying attention.
When no one’s listening.
Dead on, you’re not wrong,
Being completely accurate, you're not mistaken.
Deep down you knew it all along.
You inherently knew this truth.
I’ll fight to the end, here we go again.
I will continue to fight until the end; the cycle repeats.
Why don’t you get it all right the first time?
Why can't you get things right from the start?
Asyndromatic imposter works its way inside.
A disordered imposter infiltrates.
Forget the point of this.
Disregard the purpose of all this.
Entitled memory served.
Recall a memory with a sense of entitlement.
Why do I work so hard to be someone,
Why strive so hard to be someone worthy of pride?
That you can be proud of for something?
Despite my efforts, can you be proud of me for anything?
Despite all the hours, the violent encounters,
Despite the time and challenges, find a meaningful purpose.
Find something that matters,
Discover something significant.
At the end of it all I still find myself living.
Even after everything, I find myself still alive.
Breathe in,
Inhale deeply.
Crack open my chest again.
Reveal my vulnerabilities again.
Decomposure,
Breaking down.
I feel it taking over.
I sense it overpowering me.
When no one’s listening.
When no one is attentive.
I’ll fight to the end, here we go again.
I will persist until the end; the cycle repeats.
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